Just a Pain Reliever (Pinili Series #1)

Chapter 13

Trapped

My heart did not leap the way it did when I saw those dazzling eyes. It did not leap. It did not. 

Am I a blind fool? 

"Stephie, nandito na ang iyong susuotin! Ang ganda!" my grandmother's voice echoed in my ears.

I gazed at the empty ceiling, trying to think of ways to waste another day being gloomy and insolent. Before I could remember, the months began to fold in. Time washed by, and I began to distance myself from Bryce. I promised myself that I would not succumb my heart to foolishness just to purloin someone's eyes. After that heavy, dramatic scene in the terminal, I lost myself in daydreams and aches. I will forget him, I said. I have to walk alone. I have no right to use someone's presence to pervade the voidance of my heart. However, as I began to delve into my thoughts, I suddenly remembered how fast the pace of my heart was when I saw those dazzling eyes. I did not find it funny. I loathed it. I must resist the urge to cling to him. I must resist. I must not latch onto him.

I could not trust myself when I was with him. I am not my usual self whenever I gaze into his eyes. What is with those eyes? Why are they so dazzling? Why? He is dangerous.  

"Steph," my grandmother's voice thundered through the room with authority.

I breathed out my frustration. I did not waste another second staring at the wind. I stood up and fixed my clothes. I must embrace myself, I whispered. I picked my phone up off the table and opened it. I did not drive myself to go outside my room. I like the ambiance here: sunless and dreary.

I saw a message.

Jedd:

Monkey, handa ka na ba mamaya? 

I rolled my eyes and went back to my bed once more. I have no energy to dress up and prepare myself for our prom night. It was indeed flabbergasting to hear that our principal had agreed to hold a prom. Our school was known for not celebrating or organizing any programs regarding proms and ball nights. 

Ako:

Tsk! Kailangan ba talagang pumunta? 

I do not find it amusing to watch other people dance their hearts out. I am not fond of romantic scenes. It piques my heart. 

Jedd:

Oo naman! Isasayaw kita!

I smirked. I would never dance with him! 

Ako:

Ayoko nga!

Agad siyang nagpadala ng tugon. Natawa na lamang ako sa kanyang mensahe. Ilang segundo ang lumipas ay tuwiran na akong nagtaka sa kung ano nga ba ang nais niyang ipahayag.

Jedd:

Juicy ka naman!

Ako:

Choosy 'yon!

I laughed. My grandmother's voice thundered once more. I sighed and went to the living room. It is just a simple night. Why would I even try to fix myself when no one would ever notice me in the end? It is just a waste of time.