Tea and Blues
The vestige of love felt like a deadly thorn.
How mighty my walls must be to block the waves of desolation? I could hear the song of desperation. I could not love myself. I could not force myself to pick up the fragments of my heart. I despise my reflection. It was nothing but a silohuette of apocalypse.
Time bent its hands. I could feel the movement of my life as I began to increase my steps. I paced through the gate of our school. I could feel the exhaustion and blankness of my surroundings. Trees that uttered nothing but hush, a sky that seemed bluish yet listless, and birds that roamed above me yet could not reach the universe.
Squandered beauty is not worth loving.
"Beauty is beauty." Sightless eyes would still kiss its fallen aura.
"Alannah!" Patricille's voice echoed in my ears. She snaked her arm around my shoulder. I smiled and continued to walk forward. I was about to enter our room when my eyes drifted to a familiar figure. It was Bryce, whom I saw.
Tila ba isa siyang anghel na bumagsak sa lupa upang iligtas ako sa kalungkutan. Siya ang isa sa mga inspirasyon ko upang magpatuloy sa hamon ng buhay. Bukod doon ay patuloy pa ring umuusbong ang lihim na pagtingin ko sa kanya.
I could only hope for his devotion. I could only hope he was Zio. I was blind and delusional.
"Alannah, simula nang magkasama kayo ni Dos ay hindi mo na ako masyadong kinakausap!" Patricille mumbled agitatedly. Huminga ako nang malalim bago nagsalita.
"Kinakausap naman kita ngayon, ah."
Ngumuso siya at umirap na lamang. Itinuon kong muli ang aking atensyon kay Bryce na tahimik na nakatitig sa aming dalawa ni Pat. Nakatayo lang siya at tila ba hinihintay ang paglapit ni Pat. Umihip pa ang hangin kung kaya sumabay sa ritmo ang ilang hibla ng aking buhok. Muli ay nakaramdam ako ng kirot nang mapansin kong hindi nga pala sa akin nakatuon ang atensyon ni Bryce. Napalunok na lamang ako nang mapagtantong si Pat nga talaga ang gusto niya.
I was one of the people watching. I could only watch him from afar, secretly believing that he was the person I was looking for. I had lost everything, everything since that one rainy night. I could not press my feet to move forward without wounding my toes in the past. I could not move on. I was living in yesterday's nightmare.
"Al, nag-uusap kayo ni Dos?" Patricille uttered. Napalingon ako kay Pat at umiling.
"Really?!" gulat na sabi niya. Dahan-dahan naman akong tumango at kinamot ang aking palad.
"Hindi na siya nagpadala ng tugon, eh."
Nanlaki ang kanyang mga mata at tila ba hindi siya makapaniwalang nakausap ko nga si Dos.
"Oh! Okay! Okay!" tumango tango na lamang siya kaya hindi ko na siya muling pinansin pa.
Isang linggo na rin ang lumipas at hindi na muling nagparamdam si Dos. Nang makalapit na kami kay Bryce ay tuluyan nang binalot ng matamis na ngiti ang kanyang maamong mukha. Napapikit na lang ako nang nilapitan niya si Pat at kinausap.
To him, I was only a wind. We were two worlds apart. I adored him while his eyes were fixated on somebody. I yearn for a home that cannot be mine. Wanting was enough, I suppose. Perhaps it was enough.
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