The Proposal

Realization

Sansa had made up her mind , no matter how much she loved Jon and she did , she could not live the life of a co-wife . How would that even work ? She knew herself she couldn't bear it . She could not share , she was furious with him for falling in love with Daenerys . The thought of Daenerys being the mother of his child was like an arrow through her heart . She did want him to have a family . She just wanted it to be with her . The Gods did not want that apparently . She would accept her fate . What choice did she have ? She would tell him to marry Daenerys so that his child would not suffer the way Jon had .

She was furious with herself for loving him so much . Ultimately though she could never wish him any pain . Even though her heart was broken she wanted him to be happy . She truly did want him to have joy, peace , family , and yes love in his life , even if it was not with her .

She would cry tonight and try to rid herself of some of this hopelessness that was threatening to drown her . Things would seem better in the morning , they would have to , there was no way she could feel worse . Was it physically painful to have a broken heart ?

Jon was in his room the light was finally peeking through the windows . Tears were falling from his eyes onto the pillow . These may be the last days in Winterfell , the last days with Sansa . She was right he was being a hypocrite . He could not even think of her with another man , but here he wanted her to share him with Dany . The problem was he couldn't leave Dany , she was going to be the mother of his child and he did love her . Yes he would not have become involved with her if he had known Sansa was his cousin , but he had not known and there was no going back . Dany was an adventure , she was beautiful and she was good hearted if not a bit rash . It had been so easy to fall in love with her and he was shocked to find out about the child but he did not regret it . How could he ? He who once thought he would never have a wife , never have a family ? No he did not regret the child or it's mother . The only regret it seemed , the one he had to accept with deep sorrow , was that he would not be able to live his life with Sansa . He had to come back to Winterfell and try , he knew he would never have lived with himself if he had not at least tried to make Sansa see that he loved her and to give her this option . He wanted her in any capacity she wanted . He could not ask her to be his mistress he respected her too much , he wanted her to be his wife . Polygamy seemed the only option, after all Targaryens has done it before .
He knew that it would be next to impossible for her to accept but he knew he had to try .