The Proposal

Sansa and Jon

Jon knocks on a Sansa's solar door .

Sansa : Yes !

Jon : It's Jon can I come in ?

Sansa : Yes , come in .

Jon: Can we talk ?

Sansa ( curtseying ) : Yes , please sit down your Grace .

Jon: ( shaking his head ) Sansa stop , I just want to be Jon and Sansa .

Sansa : That's not reality , it's never been . You are the King , maybe you're not the ruler but you are King .

Jon: In name only . You know I never wanted to rule .

Sansa : I don't know anything we haven't seen in each other in many years . I know nothing of your life and maybe that's for the best .

Jon: I want to change that . I never wanted to stay away you know that . If I had known about Robb I never would have stayed away .

Sansa ( looking directly in his eyes ) : You did stay away , you did not once look back in 16 years, you never once looked back .So I don't know what you wanted , but I do know that I think it best that you leave now . You're not accomplishing anything by staying here . You should go home now to your wife and family . I don't know what you want from us now , just go home . Please !

Jon: What I want ? I don't want anything , I just want to stay here for awhile . This is my home . The North , Winterfell , I have missed it . I have never felt at peace in Kings Landing . Never in all this time, not one day of peace . I was always a guest in court I never belonged there . I want a little peace in my life , I want to get to know my son . Is that too much to ask ?

Sansa : No , but you have an obligation to Queen Daenerys . She will eventually find out about Robb . You're right about that . You should be the one to tell her . I am fearful of her reaction if she finds out from someone else . It has to be brought up in manner that she not view Robb as a threat to her in any way .

Jon: I will tell her , that needs to be handled by me . As for my obligation to Daenerys I have always done my duty and I never lied to her , I will tell her the truth about this too .

Sansa ( nods ) : Yes of course , always dutiful that is you . ( she scoffs sarcastically )

Jon : Why are you angry ? You're the one who told me never to come back , you're the one who never told me about my son ?

Sansa : Yes and you never came back , good old dutiful Jon always keeps his word . ( sarcastically )

Jon: ( tearfully ) I never came back because I knew I wouldn't be able to leave you again if I came back . I was a coward , I knew I would never have the strength to leave you again . That's why I stayed away . I love you Sansa, I always have that has not changed .

Sansa ( angrily ) : Gods just stop ! You don't get to play the victim here . You lived a grand old life as King with your love Daenerys and with your child never once even glancing back to see how we were , how I was! And now you want me to feel sorry for you ? It doesn't work that way !

Jon : No , that's not what I meant .

Sansa :
( exasperated )
Even though I was luckier than most , I raised Robb alone ! Always with the whispers of who his father was . The recrimination that I couldn't escape from , regardless of the fact that my last name was Stark. I was still unmarried with a child . It was difficult to be the only parent . I love Robb with all my heart and more , but yes there were many , many days where I was utterly , utterly alone .

There were so many nights that I wanted to share with you what he said , what he did . . When he took his first steps I wanted to tell you , when he said his first word . When he was sick I was alone . So many moments when I needed someone to hold me and tell me that I was doing alright , that I hadn't made huge irreparable mistakes with him . So many nights that I thought the loneliness would kill me ...

( tearfully )
You love me ? I don't think so . Never, not once did you think of me once you left . I accepted that ! So why are you staying ? I have tried my level best to be positive , to be helpful to others , to just live my life with Robb , and be happy without you . I've really tried . So why are you staying now ? Why do you want me to see you everyday knowing that you will eventually go back to her ? What do you hope to accomplish ?

Answer me !

Jon: ( hanging his head whispering )I am sorry that you didn't share your life with anyone Sansa . I'm sorry you went through everything alone ...If I had known about Robb...

Sansa : What ? What would you have done ? Would you have left your child and your wife to be with your unmarried lover ? What would you have done ? I did not want you to come back just for a child , I didn't want to trap you into staying with me for that and always resent me for keeping you away from your Queen and your daughter . Why would I do that ? You did not love me enough to stay or even look back . Never once for a second did you consider just being a father to your daughter and being married to me instead . You were not committed to Daenerys when she became pregnant , that was after . I never would have stopped you from being her father . I'm not Catelyn Stark .You stood in this very room and told me you loved another woman , that you were going to marry her and that you were going to have a child with her . You wanted to be with them it wasn't just duty . I knew that .What happened after was just a mirage for me ,an oasis from the loneliness . I just wanted you for a little while before you went to your real life , the life you chose . I'm not sorry because it gave me Robb , but you made it impossible for me to be with anyone else . I had to put my son first so I lived for him. The truth is the person you loved the most is yourself . You are sitting here declaring your love for me while being married to another ! How is that fair for either of us ? You never loved either of us in the true sense . I guess you did choose duty , over me at any rate . Nothing is going to change the fact that you were gone for 16 years without a trace , you can't undo that . In that time you were the dutiful loving husband and father to another family . We're nothing to you . Don't be a hypocrite and pretend otherwise , just go !

Sansa stalks out of the room .

Jon hangs his head and softly cries . He has damaged Sansa more than he thought possible . He has wounded her . He knows that it's time to set things right . Right for who ? That he does not know .