i'm still in love with you || jolivia au

im gonna fix this

a/n:

hi this is future katie editing some of the chapters. sorry to anyone who read what author's note was here previously cus it's long as hell lol

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Olivia's POV:

Ok, we can do this. just don't make eye contact and it will be fine. I guess on the bright side I will have more to write about. I just need to get through today, go to my apartment, and then be completely professional.

Everything is going to be ok.

(A/N: only true hsmtmts fans will get that reference lol)

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Josh's POV:

So Olivia won't even look at me. Great.

I know I'm crap at showing it but I really do care for her. And I know she likes me too I just need to remind her of how things used to be with us, how they can be. I've seen her TikTok, I know she thinks we aren't soulmates but I know we can get through this. I don't know what I'm going to do if I don't. I can't live without her.

(A/N: Josh is "j", Matt is "m")

Ok, who can I talk to about this? uh... oh Matt, he's the one who told me to find another girl which kind of inspired Anyone Else so maybe he can help with this.

The whole cast was gathered outside the restaurants, past security, so I had to try to stand on my tippy toes to find him. Oh, there he is!

I went and tapped him on the shoulder to get his attention.

j: "Hey um do you think we can talk for a second?"

m: "Yeh sure, is everything ok?"

We made our way away from the cast and sat on some chairs outside a Starbucks.

j: "Honestly no dude..."

m: "Let me guess. You've messed everything up with Olivia" he interrupted me.

j: "How did-"

m: "Josh she won't even look at you. It's like you guys are strangers" he cut me off again.

j: "Yeah you're right. I don't even know what I've done. I thought we would see each other and everything would be great."

m: "Dude seriously? You messed things up with that Anyone Else music video. People immediately assumed you and Sabrina Carpenter were dating, not to mention you guys hanging out all the time. She probably thinks you're in love with Sabrina."

j: "What?! No no no Sabrina and I are just friends. I think..."

m: "Well you need to be sure that the only person you want to be with is Olivia before you go and break her heart any more than you already have."

With that Matt walked away, leaving me to feel even more conflicted than before. Did I mean what I said about Sabrina? Are we actually just friends? I mean she's beautiful, smart, and talented. But Olivia's so much more. Olivia means the world to me. As bad as it sounds I think I could survive if I didn't have Sabrina in my life. I think...

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Olivia's POV:

Ugh, people are starting to catch on to me not looking at Joshua. The girls won't stop grilling me about it. As much as I love them I just don't think I'm ready to talk about it yet. I know as soon as I do I'm going to break down. Everything I've kept bottled up these past few months will all come out and I can't do that.