i'm still in love with you || jolivia au

look at me

A/N: 

 i know these "author's note" 's should probably be kind of professional and like "Oh my gosh thank you for all the love and support!" or "Do you want me to include blah blah blah" but that's not me so this will have to do 😂

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Josh's POV:

Ok here goes nothing.

As I start to play I try to make eye-contact with Olivia but she keeps avoiding my eyes. If she would just look at me I can prove to her how much she matters to me.

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Olivia's POV:

Don't make eye-contact. Don't make eye-contact. Don't. Make. Eye-contact.

As much as I hate to admit, I know if I look at him I won't be able to be furious. I'll begin to let my guard down and I can't let that happen. Not again.

But as the song went on I couldn't ignore the butterflies dancing in my stomach. And before I could comprehend what I was doing, I looked up and made eye-contact with Joshua.

Well shit.

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Josh's POV:

Olivia finally made eye-contact with me. And is that a small smile I see she's trying to hide?

I began to play the slowest verse in the song and it was like we were the only people in the world.

"The world melts away when I'm with you"

She's giving in to her smile now and I can't help but grin like the Cheshire cat. We're going to be ok. I will fix things between us and we can be together. Finally.

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Olivia's POV:

I couldn't help but let my smile slip through. No matter what, I will still have a place for him in my heart. It was like we were in our own little world. Everything melted away and for once all I could focus on was him. He still means so much to me. And I would do anything to be with him.

But I can't.

Not after everything that's happened. We haven't talked at all during quarantine. Instead he's spent his time running around with fucking Sabrina Carpenter. By his smile, I can tell that he thinks he has me under his spell. Well, he doesn't. Not anymore.

My thoughts were drowned out by applause and I shook my head out of the trance and back to the real world. Things will never work between us. They just can't. So I went back to my original plan.

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Josh's POV:

Ok, what just happened. One minute it's like we're in love, and the next she glares at me and then goes back to avoiding me?

I thought we were making progress people! I mean now what?

I put away the guitar and leave the stage trying to act normal. Maybe she just needs some space. I can do that.

*time skip: the cast goes to a restaurant at the airport and all take their seats*

Nope. I can't stay away from her. I swear it's like there's some magnet that pulls me to her. People always say that in interviews we always seem to get as close to each other as possible and honestly, they're not wrong. They always talk about the way I look at her and I mean, how can I not? She's just so incredibly talented, intelligent, beautiful, and not to mention the kindest person I've ever met. She's kind to everyone she meets.Welp. Here I am sitting next to Olivia in a booth. But she won't even look at me.

Then it came to me. I saw in an interview that Thomas Doherty challenged Dove Cameron to a stare off when they first met because she wouldn't look at me. That's what I need to do. I swear if this doesn't work then I might as well give up.

So I nudged Liv with my elbow and asked if she would do a stare-off with me.

"Huh? What's a stare off" she asked, still not looking at me.

"Like we stare at each other's eyes and the first to look away loses" I explained.

"Um...I don't know Joshua" she said while staring at her plate.

She's still calling me Joshua.

"Come on Liv--"

"Don't call me Liv Joshua" she interrupted me.

Ok, that stung. We really are strangers again.

"I'm sorry. Just, please? You won't even look at me."

"Ok" she breathed.

She turned to me and I could finally see her mesmerizing eyes. But something's different about them. They've lost some of their sparks. Did I do this?

"Alright, ready, set, go!" I said.

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Olivia's POV:

Why did I agree to this? It's only been 5 seconds and it feels like an hour.

I don't know why he even wants me to do this. I'm not changing my mind. But the more I stare into his eyes, the more it hurts. It hurts like hell.

Crap I'm letting him get to me.

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Josh's POV:

She has a wall up. I can see it in her eyes. She's refusing to let me and it's killing me. Why can't things just go back to the way they were before? Everything was so easy. Is that where it went wrong? Did we just become some sort of habit?

As I was thinking I caught myself almost losing eye-contact. Nope, I can't do that.

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Olivia's POV:

How long is this going to go on for? I swear it's been at least 3 minutes. Should I just look away?

Yes. Ok Liv, look away in 3...2...1

I couldn't do it.

Come on girl its easy just look down. Alright ready...set...go.

Why am I still staring into his eyes?

This should not be happening. You got this! Alright 1....2.....3!

I'm still looking at him.

Shit.

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A/N:

ok with that said, until next time stranger.

cordially uncordial,

katie xx