i'm still in love with you || jolivia au

you havs to choose

A/N: here it is! the chapter i published, then unpublished. hope u like!

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Joshua's POV:

Sabrina and I decided to drive up to East High together and (hopefully) quarantine there together with the rest of the cast.

We've been driving hand-in-hand in my car for around half an hour now, and we still haven't run out of things to talk about. I thought it might be awkward, but it's just so easy with Sabrina. I don't have to try at all, and I don't feel any butterflies.

That's a good thing, right?

I'm starting to feel a little bit nervous about the cast finding out about me and Sabrina. They'll be happy for us. I think...

I don't really see why they wouldn't. I'm just nervous about Olivia. I know if she turned up with another guy I'd be furious. But this won't be like that

Clearly, Olivia and I are just supposed to be friends. Sure we have chemistry. Sure we know each other better than we know ourselves. Sure we write love songs about each other. Sure she's gorgeous and smart. She's talented and kind. And sure, I care about her more than anything. Oh and she makes everyone's day better--

Crap.

No. No. NO. NO. NO. You like Sabrina. Sabrina is talented and beautiful and kind. Sabrina is the one you want to spend every second of every day with. Not Olivia.

"Babe, you missed the turn," Sabrina said.

Wait why is she calling me babe? Oh, we're dating she's allowed to call me that.

"Shit sorry, I was in my head."

"Hahaha it's ok. Are you alright, though? You know you don't need to be nervous, right?"

"I'm just worried about what they'll think."

"Think about what?"

"About this," I said pointing between us "like, about us."

"Eh, I wouldn't worry about it."

"Really? You're not nervous at all?"

I thought being nervous about something shows you cared. Guess not.

"Exactly."

"I guess I'm just nervous about Olivia's reaction as well."

"Seriously?! Why the hell do you care what she thinks? She can't control you."

"She's not controlling me, Sabrina. It's just that I'm worried about what she's going to think."

"Josh?"

"Yes?"

"Do you like Olivia?"

"Of course I like her, she's my best friend."

"No, I mean like like her. As in more than friends."

"No. No, of course not. Babe, I want to be with you. That's why we're here right now. That's why I kissed you and asked you to be my girlfriend. Please don't ever doubt the way I feel about you. I truly care about you and want to be with you. Olivia is just a friend. That's all. I promise."

"Promise?"

"I promise."

The biggest smile spread across both our faces as the light turned green. A comfortable silence fell as I started humming along to the radio.

"You can't be friends with her," Sabrina blurted out.

"Huh?" What does she even mean? Friends with who? Olivia?