i'm still in love with you || jolivia au

its his fault

**I changed the ending of the last chapter a bit, I didn't want her to burst into tears for sake of the plot, so yeah lmao**

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Olivia's POV:

All I could hear were faint murmurs. It's like I've been knocked over by a wave and don't know which way to swim to get up.

Harry cheated on me.

All of his "late night runs" were more like "late night hook-ups". And he actually convinced that poor girl on the phone that she was the only girl in his life.

I can't believe I was so naive. I actually thought that a guy truly loved me. But no, it was all just a game to him.

I was just another girl who fell for his stupid trap.

Am I just never gonna find someone who loves me unconditionally?

I broke up with Ethan. I messed up my relationship with Josh, and now I let myself be tricked into thinking this toxic relationship was genuine and that Harry loved me.

Ok Olivia. Just put on a brave face so that everyone thinks you're fine. You don't need to add to their problems.

I faked the best smile I could muster, telling everyone that I'm fine before asking what movie we should watch.

"What? No Oliva you're not ok. Let's talk about this," I heard someone say.

"Really, I'm fine. It's not a big deal," I defended, not meeting anyone's eyes.

"Liv, I know you. I can tell when you're faking a smile. Please just talk to me. I'm not here to judge you, I just want to help you," I heard Josh whisper. At some point he must have crossed the room because he's sitting on the floor by my chair, resting his hand on my leg.

"Can we go somewhere private?" I asked him quietly.

"Of course. Come on," he replied, lifting me out of the chair and holding onto my waist as we walked out of the cafeteria.

I chose to ignore all the whispering behind me and focus on Josh.

"Where are we going?" I whimpered.

"I was thinking maybe one of the offices? I feel like the music room doesn't exactly feel safe anymore."

"Yeah," I replied with a sad smile.

We walked down the hallway before stumbling across this teacher's office and going inside, closing the door behind us.

"Here, let's sit on the couch," Josh suggested.

I didn't hesitate to curl up beside him. I don't care where we are in our relationship right now, I just need to feel his comforting arms around me.

"I'm just confused," I said, trying to hold back the tears.

"That is totally understandable. I just want you to know that this isn't your fault, ok? He is the idiot in this situation, not you. He was stupid enough to let you go. He was cruel enough to play with your emotions like that. You did absolutely nothing wrong. And I know you're probably thinking right now that you're just never going to find someone who loves you, but you will."

"But what if I don't Josh?"

"I promise you will."

"I'm scared, Josh. I hate feeling this way."

"What way?"

"Weak. Helpless."

"Liv I need you to go easy on yourself. You are one of the strongest people I know. You're going to get through this, and you're going to come out even stronger."

"I-i-i j-just n-n-never t-thought i-i-i'd b-be t-the p-p-person to go through this shit."

"Nobody deserves this. But you know what might help?" he suggested, kissing the top of my head.

"W-what?"

"If you let it all out. I can see how you're bottling up your emotions."

"I don't want to bother you."

"Liv, baby, if you were bothering me I wouldn't be here right now."

That was all it took for me to burst into tears in front of him. I was sad. I was mad. I was confused. I was frustrated.

Minutes past before I finally stopped crying and just buried my face in Josh's chest.

"I've got you Liv, I've got you. I'm not going anywhere."

"Please don't."

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A/N:

we love some josh and liv action