Innocence | Severus Snape x Reader

17 - Letters of 1993

July 1st: 

Dear Y/N,

I'm not great at writing sentimental things, really I've never had to. I just wanted to say thank you. I'll keep that very general too. I have a lot to thank you for and even now it's scary for me to write my feelings down.

I hope you're okay and I miss you dearly.

Love, Severus.

July 2nd:

Dear Severus, 

I can't tell you how happy I felt when I saw that you wrote first. Actually I was in the middle of writing you a letter to you when yours arrived. 

I suppose I'll say thank you as well, I also have a lot to thank you for. 

Things at home are... messy. My mother barely even talks to me. I'm sure everything that's happened the past two years are still troubling her. I've given up on babying her though. Everything I'm doing around the house is really just so I don't have to look at messes. 

I miss you as well and I hope I get to see you soon. 

Love, Y/N. 

July 3rd: 

Dear Y/N, 

I'm glad I can make you feel happy just with a simple letter. I'm sorry to hear that things aren't going well. If you ever need anything ask me, I will provide. 

Things are as they always are for me. I never do much and I'm home alone most days. Writing and receiving letters from you are really the highlights of my days. It gives me something to smile about and look forward to every day. 

I can't help but ask myself how you've done it. It could be any number of things about you that entrance me the way you have. And of all people you were a student, how surprising. 

Love, Sev. 

July 4th: 

Dear Sev, 

Your kind words warm my heart, truly. I can say the same for when I write you. 

I have to be honest, I've never done anything like this before. I've never even kissed another person until I shared that kiss with you. I have no regrets about it either. Though I can't help but draw some connections to our favourite book, especially when you said you'd provide if I needed anything. Which I ask you for nothing more than your affection, it is good enough for me. 

Honestly, I'm not sure how I've done it either. The person I was in my fifth year would have been confused by this, but not exactly surprised. You've always been one of my favourite teachers because you're consistent and do your job well.  

Love, N/N. 

July 6th: 

Every word of that made me smile. I go to bed and wake up thinking of you Y/N, I truly do. 

What would you say to meeting soon? I'll let you pick the place and everything. Just as long as we can agree on something to enjoy. 

Love, Sev. 

July 9th: 

How is it you manage to steal my words right from my head before I even think of them? 

I don't think I'll be able to meet any time soon. Things have become increasingly worse with my mother. On one hand she talks to me now, but on the other were are always fighting. I'm trying to hold on like I promised I would, not go back to how i was when this all began. I really am trying. 

Love, Y/N. 

July 9th: 

Be strong Y/N, I know you can. And I will be here for you always.

Love, Severus. 

I sat at the desk in my room, staring at Severus' last letter to me. I didn't know how to respond and just like before I was losing the will to do anything, even the things I enjoyed. 

"Y/N!" I heard my mother scream from downstairs. Of course, I went, and I was met with her angered face yet again. 

"I"m SICK of having to clean up your shit!" She spat at me. I closed my eyes and sighed trying to keep my cool. 

"Mom, you left that out remember? You do every time. I just didn't feel like cleaning today I've been exhausted." I explained, trying to reason with the woman who seemed to be going mad. 

"You know what's exhausting?" She said bitterly, stepping towards me. "Having to raise you for eighteen years! You're the reason all of this even happened!" 

"Mom..." I said, feeling pain from her words. 

"And now your father is out with those.. those people! Trying to get your aunt Bella out." She said frantically. 

"You're not making any sense." 

My mother pulled out her wand and pointed it at me. I put my hands up and backed away, but she walked towards me. 

"Shut up! Shut up!" The closer she got the more I could smell the strong scent of alcohol on her. 

"You've been drinking!" I yelled at her, my voice cracking. 

"I SAID SHUT UP." I walked away from her and went back upstairs.

I shut and locked my bedroom door behind me and pulled down a large bag. I started shoving clothes in there frantically. As I did so the doorknob jiggled. 

"Y/N M/N L/N you better open this door now!" She nearly growled. As I packed some things up I noticed water falling onto my bed and other things. My head hurt, my arms hurt, and everything felt like jelly to me. 

"Open the damn door!" She said, starting to pound on the door. 

I sipped the bag shut and looked around my room one last time. Seeing that I had everything I needed, I took out my wand and gave it a good flick. 

I apparated out of my room, and when I had landed not only did I feel nauseous but I felt a heavy rain come down on me.