Another Family (CLEXA AU)

27)The Toilet

I watched Aden as his happy little smile turned into a frown.

"Abby, Marcus, can you two take Madi for a few minutes?" I asked, needing some time to speak with Aden alone.

Abby nodded understanding what I was about to tell him so she took Madi and Marcus with her out of the hotel room.

"Where is she?" Aden asked, his face falling even more, clearly noticing something was wrong. "Where's my mom?"

"I'm sorry Aden but she had to go take care of something." I said, bending down so I was closer to the young boy. I don't even know if that was true. I feel like I don't know what's true anymore.

"Where did she go?"

I opened my mouth to speak but nothing came out. What am I supposed to say? I don't even know where Lexa is.

"Clarke?" Aden asked, his eyes starting to tear up. "Where's my mom?"

I quickly moved to pull Aden into a hug and he started to cry in my arms. "I'm sorry Aden but I don't know." I told him, rubbing small circles on his back to try and comfort him.

"Where's uncle Lincoln?" He asked, pulling away from the hug.

"He went with your mom." I told him, my heart breaking as I watched his reaction. "You are going to stay with Madi and I for a while ok Aden."

"No." Aden shook his head. "No I want my mom."

"I'm sorry Aden but she's not here."

"I want her!" Aden shouted, now having a full on meltdown, tears steaming down his face. I felt my own eyes start to water too and I couldn't help but cry a little.

"I know I'm so sorry Aden." I whispered, bringing him into another hug. This time he didn't pull away and he just relaxed into my arms. I wish I didn't have to watch Aden go through this. I wish I myself didn't have to go through this. I can't believe she's gone. We are alone again. Why am I surprised though? Everyone always leaves.

Aden doesn't deserve this though. He just got his mom back after years of her distancing herself from him and now she's gone again. The poor kid was just getting attached to her.

I heard a knock on the door and it was Madi Marcus and Abby. Madi immediately saw that Aden and I were crying and ran over to hug us.

I smiled though the tears, watching my daughter act so empathetic and caring. I'm so proud of her and I know she will help Aden and I through this.

"How about we all watch a movie?" Abby suggested, moving to sit by us on the floor.

Marcus moved to grab a remote then sat down next to us as well. The kids nodded their heads, Aden wiping away tears and Madi trying to comfort him by squeezing him tightly.

After a few minutes the kids had selected a movie they really wanted to watch and we all sat on the floor watching it together. It was some kids movie I hadn't seen yet. It was funny and cute but my mind just wasn't in the right headspace for it.

I stood up excusing myself, making up some excuse about how I needed to use the restroom and I walked into the hotel bathroom shutting the door behind me. I walked to the sink and grabbed it, steadying my body that felt like it was on the verge of collapsing. When I looked up into the mirror in front of me, I couldn't recognize the person looking back at me.

That woman standing there, tears flowing down her cheeks and eyes red and puffy, she's not me. That person is weak. I am not weak. I can't be. I have two kids to take care of now. I technically have no obligation to Aden but I love that boy like he's my own son. I won't let Lexa leaving hurt Aden anymore. I won't let Lexa leaving hurt me anymore. I'm not weak. I will be strong.

I put on a stoic face trying to suppress all of my emotions but suddenly I felt a small break in my heart. I thought the term heart break was an emotional description. A way to describe a feeling where you lose a small part of you. It wasn't until this moment I realized it was physical. A sharp pain in my chest making me want to scream out. A horrible throbbing that never seemed to go away.

I reached into my pocket and pulled out the keychain Lexa gave me. I don't want this stupid thing. I don't want to be reminded of the woman I love...the woman supposedly loved me...the woman that left me. I walked over to the toilet, holding onto the chain and letting the infinity charm dangle over the bowl. All I have to do is drop it in and flush. If I get rid of this then the pain will go away. It has to.

I squeezed my eyes closed tight, ready to drop this last piece of Lexa. I was ready to forget about all of the pain. Then I heard a soft knock on the door.

I took a deep breath and returned the keychain back to my pocket, before moving to answer the door.

"Madi?"

"Mommy. What's wrong with Aden?"

I gave Madi a small smile and picked her up, seating her on the counter in front of me.

"You know Lexa and Lincoln?"

Madi nodded.

"They had to go away for a while."

Madi suddenly frowned and she seemed much sadder then I thought she would be. "Why didn't they say goodbye?" Madi asked, super confused as to why they would just leave.

"I don't know Mads."

"Are you ok?" Madi asked me, completely catching me off guard.

"Yes of course." I lied. "Why do you ask?"

"I know you are in love with Lexa." Madi explained, causing my eyes to widen immediately.

"What?"

"You two are soulmates."

I suddenly felt my mouth go dry and I was at a loss for words.

"Let's go back and watch the movie." Madi smiled.

"Ok." I nodded, grateful for the change of conversation. I can't believe I was lucky enough to have such an amazing daughter. She knows me so well. Maybe even too well. This might just be the one things she's wrong about though. Lexa isn't my soulmate. Soulmates don't leave.

An: sorry this is kinda short just a filler since today is the Finale day. I'm gonna cry.