Another Family (CLEXA AU)

39)The Wake Up

"Clarke. Hey it's ok don't cry Clarke."

My eyes opened and I shot up in my car seat. I was breathing super quickly and I could feel tears stream down my cheeks. Then I saw her, sitting next to me, holding my hands.

"Lex?"

"It's ok Clarke, I'm right here what's wrong?"

My eyes widened and I looked around and realized I was in a car. It was around dusk time and here I was again in Lexa's car....Lexa was here. This didn't make any sense.

"You're...you're here."

"Yes of course I'm here Clarke. It's ok. Whatever is wrong it's ok." Lexa assured me, cupping my face in her hands.

"But you were arrested Lex. The police...I don't..."

"It was just a nightmare Clarke I'm right here." Lexa explained, wiping some tears from my cheeks.

Hearing those words from Lexas mouth was the biggest relief I have ever felt in my entire life. I had to make sure it was real though and this wasn't a dream too so I leaned forward pressing my lips against Lexa's soft pink ones. She kissed back with a lot of feeling and I knew this was real.

When we pulled away Lexa had this look of understanding in her eyes and all I wanted to do was tell her everything.

"Would you like to talk about it?" Lexa asked me, holding my hands again.

I nodded my head and took some deep breaths trying to slow down my breathing. "We had gotten out of the car and gone back to the campsite. Then we were making s'mores and stuff and everything was happy until the police came."

"The police came to our campsite?" Lexa asked, trying to make sure she got the details right.

"Yeah." I confirmed, realizing how ridiculous that was. "They came and they had a warrant for your arrest. They said you murdered someone. The kids were crying and they took you away and..." I couldn't finish as the tears started to fall again. That was probably the worst most vivid nightmare I've ever had in my entire life. It felt so real.

I felt Lexa's arms wrap around me and pull me into her. I started crying into her chest and she ran her hand over my head soothingly. "I'm so sorry Clarke. It's all ok. I'm right here." Lexa repeated in a soft whisper until I had calmed down a little more.

"I felt like dying Lex." I mumbled, pulling away from Lexa's hug and looking into her forest eyes.

"Don't say that Clarke."

"It's true though. I don't know what I'd do if I lost you....I can't."

"Well then it's a good thing I'm not going anywhere. Clarke I promise you I will never leave your side for any reason ever."

I moved to fall back into Lexa's arms again, relieved to hear those words that meant the world to me. I already know how madly in love with Lexa I have been but it's like my love continues to grow every second. I will never stop loving Lexa and I wouldn't ever want to anyways. We have been through so much shit together and I couldn't ask for a better partner to go through it with.

Isn't that the point of love anyways? Finding that partner that you want at your side through everything? That person who's there for you during the good times and the bad ones? That person that makes you whole?

In that moment, with my head resting on Lexa's chest, listening to the heartbeat that seems to always keep me going, I knew I had found her. I had found my partner. My soulmate. That bad dream was my wake up call. A wake up that showed me I don't ever want to lose her again. I won't.