Another Family (CLEXA AU)

34)Moving On

"Can I sit?" I asked, gesturing to the open seat next to Lexa.

"Of course." Lexa nodded, patting on the seats cushion.

I took a seat next to her and looked around the area. Most people have gone home already but Lexa needed some extra time alone so I gave her some space. Something is telling me to check on her now though, so that's what I'm doing.

The venue is nice and well put together. The grass is nicely maintained and there are a few big oak trees spread out around the property giving the space an almost relaxing feeling. For a cemetery, the property is quite impressive and without all of the graves and tombstones, one might not even be able to tell it's a graveyard.

Suddenly Lexa turned her body to face my own like she was about to say something. "I Uh...I know I'm supposed to be super sad right now, but I'm not. Everyone else was crying at the funeral, and that made me sad but I wasn't even crying for him. What is wrong with me Clarke? He was my brother."

"Hey nothing is wrong with you Lexa. Everyone mourns in different ways. I assure you that everyone understands that. Plus Lincoln did try and kill us. I'd understand if you still have some hard feelings about that."

"Yeah." Lexa agreed. "That's a good point, I didn't exactly appreciate that. Still though. I feel guilty in a strange way."

"You don't just have to pick one feeling lex. You can feel mad, and happy, and sad, and tired, and whatever else you want to feel."

Lexa grabbed my hand and intertwined our fingers, looking me in the eyes. I could feel her pain in that moment and it broke my heart. But even more importantly, with that pain I could see something else. Healing. It's going to be a slow and painful process but I know I can help Lexa heal over time. I have to.

"There is one feeling that I feel a lot of thanks to you. You make me feel loved Clarke." Lexa admitted, breaking eye contact and looking at the ground. It still surprises me how shy she is after everything we've been through together, although I don't mind at all because shy Lexa is adorable.

"I'm glad you feel that way Lexa because I love you so much. As I say to Madi and Aden...I love you forever."

"I love you forever too Clarke." Lexa smiled, and we both leaned in for a short and sweet kiss. Lexa hummed as we pulled away and I noticed her eyes were still closed.

"You know Clarke, sometimes I wish I could teleport so I could teleport us somewhere more private."

"Sometimes I wished your mind wasn't so dirty but then I remember how hot you are and I don't remember why I would ever wish such a thing." I joked, causing both of us to laugh a little.

"How can I help myself from having such dirty thoughts when the love of my life is as hot as you Clarke Griffin?" Lexa asked mischievously.

"Stop it Lex." I smiled, turning away, too embarrassed with Lexa's words. She really knows how to get to me.

"I have a better idea. I will pause and we can continue this at home. I sure am glad Abby and Marcus are in town and the kids are staying with them."

"Are you trying to tell me that we have the whole house to ourselves?" I asked in a subtle yet also flirtatious tone.

"No. Harold will be walking around the backyard but besides that we are good." Lexa smiled, giving me a wink.

"Let's go then." I smiled, standing up and pulling Lexa up with me.

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"Mommy come on! We are going to be late!" Aden complained, tugging on my sleeve and pulling me forwards.