Philophobia//Ziam

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Liam ran Ran home from the gym after a phone call he receives he open the door slamming it shut and ran into the shower without even acknowledging the three boys in the kitchen

he knew that probably be worried about him as he usually stop to have a conversation before going to his room but at this point he didn't care

He hopped in the shower turned on the water to boiling point or at least that's what it felt like hot droplets of water burning his skin is exactly how he wanted to feel though want to feel your skin burn crackle and pop and the hot water

After sharing for what felt like an hour he got out of the shower and Called sister He didn't know why he called her but it was his only option he thought

I mean after all that mum had just died And Liam didn't know what to do with himself him care what people thought of him

He didn't care about his philophobia in care about anything except for the fact that his mum was gone the one person that stood by your side the whole entire time the one person that didn't laugh in his face when he told them about his Philophobia was gone gone with the wind

After a long call with his sister he ends up falling asleep
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That night Zayn can't sleep either like usual he's thinking this Nextep is playing he wants lame to be able to feel he read online that a lot of Philophobes stop themselves and feel their feelings

He knows that Louis is gonna be out at work tomorrow and Harry is probably gonna be with him and he knows that Niall will probably be playing golf with whoever he can find around man and he'll have the house alone with Liam tomorrow

Which he thinks will be the perfect opportunity to have a heart to heart with Liam and hopefully he finds out some more about Philophobia and how we can help them overcome it

And maybe get Liam to admit that he's gay that would be a bonus Zayn thought to himself as he rolled over in bed to try and get some sleep as he was going to need the energy for tomorrow he thought
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Meanwhile Harry and Louis are cuddled up on Louis bed talking to each other about the whole situation it's so confusing to everyone but especially to Louis and Harry on the outside looking in

" it's just so confusing how can you be so comfortable around Zayn and yet so uncomfortable" Louis says still trying to wrap his head around what was going on between the two

"That's what Philophobia does we might not understand it no one might understand it but just what happens maybe without lambs Philophobia they would be together by now I reckon lambs too afraid to like Zayn he knows he does maybe that's why he triggers he's philophobia" Harry says

" I guess you're right I just wish this was a whole lot easier" Louis says looking up at Harry

" trust me we all do" Harry says kissing Louis in the top of his head before rolling both of them over so they were spooning before saying " but let's stop trying to understand it and get some sleep you need the energy for work tomorrow" Louis just sighs & agrees before slowly falling asleep
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It's been around 3 weeks since that night liam told the boy's about his mum & had been moping around for the past two weeks after that

Harry and Louis decided to go over to Harry's because they have been over at the boys house for quite awhile and Niall well no one knew and I was but that wasn't surprising or worrying

So it was just liam and then Liam was on the couch playing he Xbox while Zayn saw this and thought it was the perfect time to start step 5 of his plan

"hey Zayn" Liam said as he saw Zayn out of the corner of his eye sitting on the couch next to him

"Um hey" Zayn said already feeling awkward knowing what he is about to ask he watching as Liam turned off his game to give Zayn his full attention

"Um, you wanna talk about what your feeling?" Zayn says quite quietly if they weren't so close liam would've missed it

"There's not much to talk about Zayn" Liam responds almost as quietly "I have a phobia of loving & I think I'm falling in love with someone, My mum just died & I'm pretty sure I'm gay" Liam says with a tear rolling out of his eye

"It's ok Liam it's just you & me feel whatever you want to feel" Zayn says rubbing his hand on Liam back

which Liam strangely doesn't mind & almost feels comforting until he remembers that he can't feel like that & that it being just Zayn & him might be the problem