Never Have Love At All (Las Mujeres Fuertes Series #1)

CHAPTER 27

Aza keep on caressing my fingers. I smiled when he started kissing it. Ngayon ay nasa promise ring na suot ko ang buong atensiyon niya.

"It suit really good on you..."

"Really?"

He bit his lower lip and slowly nodded. "Yeah. How I wish I can give you now an engagement ring."

I caressed his arms and leaned on his shoulder. I watched as sky changes its colors magnificently. Pati ang lagaslas nang tubig ay parang musika sa aking pandinig. I love countryside. Oh, how I wish I could stay here forever... Or at least a little longer.

"We're getting there, babe." I assured him.

It took him a long paused before he speaks up again. Nilingon niya ako at nginitian. I smiled back. I really love how he smiled. Ang gwapo niya lalo kapag nakangiti.

"I've been praying so hard, Tallinn. Para naman hayaan ako na maging para sa'yo."

"You are the one, Aza."

He didn't reply instead he seal my lips with his lips. He's so gentle as if he's so afraid that he might hurt me. He hold my back for support. His kisses deepen and he just stopped when we are out of air. He rest his forehead on mine and hum a song.

"Are you crying?" I asked worriedly when our eyes met.

The sides of his eyes turned red. I wiped the tear that escape his eyes. I... I just can't see him like this.

It pains me.

I don't want him to feel sad.

When he's hurt, I'm hurting the most.

"You can always tell me, Aza. I'm always here for you." I whispered and I really mean it.

From the bottom of my heart...

I'm always willing to share with your pain. Your battles are my battles too, Reonel Azarde.

"I know," he chuckled. "I have to tell you something..."

I slowly nodded even though I'm getting nervous. Isang buong Linggo ng ganito si Aza. I don't know what bothered him so much but whenever I asked him, okay lang daw. I don't know kung nap-pressure ba siya sa upcoming race niya sa Austria o kung ano pa man.

"Mom is sick." He started.

I looked at him. Hindi ko alam ang sasabihin ko. Alam ko naman na. Narinig ko kay Joella. Kung pino-problema niya na dadalang yung oras namin sa isa't-isa dahil gusto niyang alagaan ang Mama niya, maiintindihan ko. Kahit naman hindi ko pa lubos na kilala ang pamilya niya, concern parin naman ako sa kanila. After all, it's his family. Hindi ko naman siguro mahihigitan 'yun sa buhay niya at naiintindihan ko 'yon.

"She needs me... But..."

"But?" I prompted.

"I don't know how. Hindi ko alam kung paano, Tallinn. I'm confused. I don't know what to do. I... I want to stay."

I exhale a large amount of air and looked up again above the sky to admire its colors. Sobrang ganda! I will always be mesmerize how aesthetically sky can be. No wonder many people loves it. At sana... Sana matanggal din nito ang lungkot ni Aza.

"Kailangan ka ng Mama mo? May mas importante pa ba roon? Kung iniisip mo ako, okay lang. I'm just here, Aza. I can wait." Nginitian ko siya at hinaplos ang pisngi nito.

Bumitaw ako sa hawak niya at tumayo para maglakad-lakad sa dalampasigan. Kagat ko ang pang-ibabang labi ko para pigilan ang pagiging emosyonal. I'm not selfish. His Mom needs him. Hindi ko naman pag-aari si Aza, hiram ko lang naman din. Kaya ko rin naman maghintay.