Never Have Love At All (Las Mujeres Fuertes Series #1)

CHAPTER 28

There are things that I wanted to believed yet I can't. Whenever I loved too much, I still ended up getting hurt. Minsan napapatanong nalang ako... Hindi ba ako deserving na maging masaya nalang?

I always ended up getting hurt.

Was it because I chose the wrong man for me? Hindi pa ba si Aza ang tamang lalaki para sa akin?

I love him.

I can't lose him.

"Tallinn, can I come in?"

I'm still locked up inside my room. I knew that they are getting worried about me but I need to be alone. I need to do this for myself.

"NO! Please, leave me alone! I want to be alone, please!"

"We're worried, T. Hindi ka pa kumakain simula kaninang umaga." Api said, I can recognized how sad her voice is.

"We have chicken wings!" Che exclaimed.

"You can rant to us! We got your back, alright? We love you." Now, it's my bestfriend Kylie.

I covered my mouth so that they can't hear my sobs. I knew that they are all here including the boys and Ryle. I lost count on how many times they did tried to talked to me and asked me to eat. Salitan sila sa pagkumbinsi sa akin but I refused to went out of my room. They keep on checking me but I just literally wanted to be alone.

I feel so tired.

Kanina pa ako umiiyak. Ang sakit-sakit kasi. Ang hapdi na nang mga mata ko pero wala akong magawa kung hindi umiyak. Mahal na mahal ko si Aza. Hindi ko matanggap.

I plan to contact him... To ask him why? Ramdam ko naman na may problema siya pero bakit hindi niya nalang sinabi sa akin? Bakit masyado niya pa akong pinaasa sa mga salita niya... Na ayaw niya akong iwan... Na gusto niya akong pakasalan... Na ako lang 'yung mahal niya. Masyado niya akong pinaniwala. Masyado kaming masaya. Sana sinabi nalang niya para hindi ganito kasakit.

He fed me those words... Those words that made me hold for him tightly. He made me feel so special. Na ang sakit para sa kanya kung iiwan ko siya pero siya naman pala 'tong mang-iiwan. I really trusted him.... I trusted his feelings for me but what happened? He lost me in the process and it's hurting me so bad.

Para akong pinapatay. Hindi ko matanggap. Hindi ako makapag-isip.

I didn't realized that I fell asleep. I feel so tired and drained. Nagising na lamang sa malakas na pagtatalo sa labas. I heard them cursing. I honestly want to go outside but I can't face them now. I'm so weak. I don't want any pity from them.

I get up and opened my door slightly to listen. Naupo ako sa sahig habang nakikinig sa kanila.

"Fuck! Who the hell posted that? It's all over the net!" It's Che, anger is visible on her voice.

"I'm asking a friend to trace whoever did that. Pero baka fans ni Joella?" Stan replied.

"The fuck! It can be account as cyberbullying! Pwede silang sampahan nang kaso! Lahat galit kay Tallinn because they made a fucking story for those people to believed!"

"Yeah. It's getting worst."

"You know Davis, I fucking hate your friend!" Che burst out. "He looks so harmless pa ha gago pala! Ang kapal ng mukha!"

"Lower your voices. Tallinn might hear you guys. We can't bring another pain on her." Api said, calmly.

I pursed my lips because I can still hear them. Anong story? Bakit ako masasaktan ulit? Hindi pa ba tapos? Meron pa ba? May mas ikakasakit pa ba 'yung nararamdaman ko?