HIDDEN DESIRE (COMPLETED)

CHAPTER EIGHTEEN: THE HIDDEN?

R18

"Finally!" I heard Gino's sharp voice when I slowly open my eyes but they didn't bother to look at Gino. They were busy crying. As if I'm already dead.

I saw everyone is crying. My mom is crying on my dad's shoulder while Kuya Yamuel is crying too while hugging a unfamiliar lady. Wow. John is with Ching while Gino is standing right beside my hospital bed.

I want to hug his so tight but there's inside me stopping from doing that.

"Where's Gerard, I want to see him" now everyone is already looking at me out of curiosity. Siguro kase hinahanap ko ang wala, malamang alangan hanapin ko ang nandito. Duh!

""F*CK! Siya na naman" I heard Gino' curse and turned his back to me and ready to go outside but I stop him

"Wait, where are you going.." I pause. I don't know how to call him " Ino" finally, I missed calling him Into

"W-what did you call me? Can you please call me again with that name?"

"Ino" I grant his wish and I saw a genuine smile on his face

"I missed you, Ayesha. I missed you so much" after saying words I already feel his arms around me and his crying already. Ganon ba niya ako kamiss? How sweet!

Everyone excuse themselves to give us sometime to talk.

"Where's Gerard?" gusto kong mang asar, bakit ba?

"Pagkagising mo siya na agad ang hinanap mo samantalang nandito naman ako at ang pamilya mo pero hinayaan kanalang namin pero bakit hanggang ngayon siya padin gusto mong makita. Ok, i get it. " he smiled but it's not genuine "Gusto mobang tawagan kosya for you? Just tell me and I will leave this fcking hospital and never comeback again. I promise" he is jealous

"Go" I said and bite my lower lip to stop my tears from falling down

Tumango tango lang siya na para bang hindi makapaniwala sa sinabi ko. Kahit nga ako hindi makapaniwala. Napakatapang kong sabihin yon but honestly Im scared being left behind again.

"Ok. I will call him immediately after I leave the hospital." hindi siya nakatingin sa akin habang sinasabi ang mga salitang iyon

"Yeah, go. Never comeback again. Doon ka naman magaling diba? Ang umalis nalang at takbuhan ang problema. Iwanan ang mga taong nagmamahal sayo. You're always running away. Makasarili ka Ino, napakamakasarili mo, hindi mo iniisip ang mga taong maiiwan mo. If you really love me that time, lalaban ka. Ipaglalaban moko over your brother but anong ginawa mo, umalis ka and I didn't know na may sakit ka sa puso. T*ngina lang! Kaibigan Moko pero wala akong kaalam alam ang inakala ko ayaw mona akong kalaro, at ayaw mona saakin ang daming what ifs na nandito" turo ko sa ulo ko. "Pero wala akong magawa kundi ang maghintay nalang, tapos malalaman ko na magpapakasal kana and not with me but with other women" tuluyan nakong naiyak hindi kona mapigilan ang mga luha na kanina Kopa pinipigilan

Siguro kanina natutuwa pa ako sa pang-aasar ko sakanyan but when he say that he'll leave me again biglang lumabas ang galit ko naalala lahat ng paglilihim nila saakin at pag-iwan niya noong panahong hulog na hulog ako sakanya.

"Go! Leave! I don't want to see your face again over and over again. Yun Ang gusto mo diba, the I will let you go hindi kita hahawakan kung ikaw mismo ang gustong bumitaw. Duwag ka! Napaka duwag mo! I thought.." hindi ko matuloy ang sinasabi ko dahil sa hikbi ko " I thought kapag nalaman ko ang nakaraan ko magiging ok na ang lahat but I was wrong." I'm waiting him to leave but his not moving so I guess I'm the one who needs leave.

Tinanggal ko lahat ng nakakabit sa akin at tumayo para umalis sa lugar na ito pero pinigilan niya ako sa pamamagitan ng pagyakap niya sa akin mula sa likod

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry. Hindi ko alam na ganyan ang nararamdaman mo, patawarin mo ako kung palagi nalang akong tumatakbo, I'm sorry for hurting you. I'm sorry dahil napaka duwag ko, Please forgive. Sasabihin ko ang lahat ng gusto mong malaman just stay here wag mokong iiwan" nice! Ayaw niyang maiwanan pero siya lagi nalang nang-iiwan

"You're selfish."

"Yes, I am. I'm selfish, jerk, bastard, stupid for not thinking about what you feel. I'm such a stupid person for hurting you. I'm sorry, Ayesha" umiiyak na din siya kaya mas lalo akong naiyak dahil nakikita kong nasasaktan ang taong mahal ko

"Pleaseee" iniharap niya ako sakanya at niyakap ng mahigpit na tila ayaw akong mawala sa mga bisig niya

The next thing I knew his already kissing me. His kisses was soft and gentle, wala kaming pakealam kung may biglang pumasok sa kwarto ang makita kami ngayon. He pushed his tongue inside my mouth and I don't know what to do next. I want to stop him pero hindi ko mapigilan ang nararamdaman naming dalawa.

Kanina nagaaway lang kami at ngayon gumagawa na kami ng bagay na hindi naman dapat gawin. He still kissing me until I felt his hand inside of my hospital gown and I'm not comfortable with what his doing. I do my best to stop him pero ayaw niyang tumigil. Kaya hinayaan ko nalang.

Hanggang sa naramdaman ko nalang ang pagdikit ng aking likod sa dingding at narinig ang pag lock nya ng pinto. I put my hands around his neck and kissed him trying to follow him. He cupped my breast na ikinagulat ko kaya bigla ko nalang nakagat ang labi niya na kinangiti naman niya. He's teasing me.

"Princess, are you ok? Bakit bigla kayong natahimik ni Gino, ayos lang ba kayo at bakit naka-lock ang pinto?" sh*t napahinto kami ni Ino sa ginagawa namin ng marinig ang katok at boses ni kuya galing labas

Nagkatinginan lang kami ang ngumiti sa isa't isa na parang walang nagyari saamin. Bubuksan kona sana ang pinto ng pigilan niya ako ang inilingan

"Please give me a chance to prove my love for you. I want to take a risk kahit natatakot ako na hindi mo ako mahalin pabalik pero ayos lang dahil gagawin ko ang lahat para lang mahalin mo ako ulit"

"I love you. When I tell you I love you I mean it. So please don't stop me from proving myself to you how much i want you."