Be My First 2 - Together Forever

Chapter 34 - Test

  Suddenly, I heard the front door open. After jumping about 2 feet into the air, I slammed the bathroom door shut and turned the shower on to pretend like I was doing something else. I sat on the edge of the bathtub and covered my mouth, crying. This isn't real. It can't be.

Jack knocked on the door.

"Hey, I got you something from Chik Fil A!" He said.

Oh great. Food. The last thing I wanted.

I took a deep breath and uncovered my mouth. "Okay, I'll be out in a second!" I tried to sound happy but my voice ended up cracking.

"..Are you okay?"

"Yeah!" I replied. "Just a cough." I pretended to have a cough.

The things that are going through my mind right now are absolutely insane. I can't handle this.

I ended up showering for like 10 minutes, even though running the water was just a cover up at first.

I got out and saw everything on the counter. Pretend like it isn't there.

I put the stuff back into the plastic bag and wrapped it in a sweater and stuffed it into my bag. It was hard for me to look at myself in the mirror. I was ashamed, and my life is going to be completely ruined.

I fixed myself up, got dressed, made sure that my eyes didn't look like I've been crying, then walked out of the bathroom and into the kitchen.

I can't even look at Jack.

"Hey." He said, pulling something out of the bag.

"Hi." I tapped my finger on the countertop, focusing on the jagged little lines in the pattern of the granite.

Jack J answered a phonecall and went into the livingroom.

"Here, I didn't know if you were hungry or not but I got them anyways cause you love em." He handed me a box of chicken nuggets.

Did I have an appetite? Absolutely not. Was I about to eat these? Yes.

"Thanks!" I shortly smiled and sat down.

"Did something happen?" He asked.

"Huh?" I pretended like I didn't know what he was talking about.

"You just seem down or something."

I hate when he acknowledges my sadness sometimes. He always tries to make me happy and at times I just want to be sad. Like now.

I shrugged, taking a bite of one of the nuggets. "I'm fine, I'm just sort of tired from waking up early."

He nodded in understanding, taking a bite of his food.

I imagined myself telling him right here, right now. How things would play out, how he'd act, how I'd say it, everything.

If I sit here and dwell on this forever it really is just going to get worse. Should I just bring it up like right now? Jack J was outside at the moment.

"So," I began, nonchalantly. "I took one of the tests." I examined my chicken nugget, pretending to be interested. I looked over and his eyes widened. He stopped chewing.

"Oh god, so, so what happened?" He furrowed his eyebrows.

I nodded. My bottom lip shook and I knew that I was about to cry.

His breathing seemed to get heavier. "W-what'd it say..?" He gripped the edge of the counter, turning his knuckles pale.

I looked down and nodded. "It said positive."