Chasing Reality [sequel to Autistic Innocence -J.M]

Chapter 43

Camilla's P.O.V

"C-chance?" I stuttered out quietly, nothing but surprise and nervousness now taking over and consuming my body at the sight of what used to be my best friend standing in front of me.

"Hey," he gives me an awkward smile as he glanced at my entire face with his hands stuffed in his pockets while rocking back and forth slightly on the balls of his feet.

"H-hi?" I question him slowly, wondering what in the world he was doing here.

He gives me a look that doesn't allow me even the slightest clue as to what he's feeling before it goes away and he's reaching his hand out of his pocket to scratch at the back of his neck nervously before glancing back up at my face again.

"Uh, can you talk for a little while?" He asks me, his voice seemingly deeper than I remember.

I look him in his eyes for a little bit, my lip now in between my teeth in a nervous habit before glancing behind me to be able to catch a glimpse of my mom still in my dad's lap calming him down from his earlier episode.

"Umm.." I trail off, not knowing if it would be a good idea.

"Please Cam? I just gotta talk to you real quick, alright?" He catches my eye and a moment of silence goes on between us, just looking at each other and before I knew it I was nodding my head slightly.

"Okay, just let me put my shoes on." I mumble and he nods as he watches me through the door I left open as I slip on some of Jr.'s Nike slides since they were the closest to me and easiest to put on and plus the fact that the boy's got a huge foot for his age so they actually do somewhat fit me decently.

I make sure I have my phone secured in my pocket before slowly making my way outside and shutting the door behind me. Once I'm out, I look up at him expectantly and he puffs his cheeks out before letting the air out slowly as if he doesn't know what to say or how to say it. I know because I do the same thing sometimes.

"I just wanted to say I'm sorry," he starts off, catching me by complete surprise as we start walking absentmindedly. "That day at the park, I said some things I ain't have no business saying and I was outta line. I was under a lot of stress at the time and I guess I took it out on you and I'm sorry, alright? I really honest to God didn't mean any of that. It was just an off day and you ain't deserve it. I had been wanting to reach out for a while but I had this thing where I thought you was better off without me. I thought you deserved way better than me and you belonged to this really fancy and privileged world that I had no idea how to be apart of. And if I'm being honest, I still don't know how to be apart of your world but I'm willing to fucking change all of that just for you. My cousin made me realize the other day that if I want the girl, no matter what no body thinks or gotta say about it, I gotta go get her. Period. So that's what I came to do Cam." He takes a breath and by the end of it I have no idea what to think or say.

He doesn't even give me a chance to respond before he's talking again.

"I want you. I've been wanting you for a while now," he lets out a small chuckle as he stops, making me stop as well and looking up at him as he continues to talk.

"And the worst thing you can say is no or for me to get the fuck outta your face and off your property but Cam," he takes a breath and waits for me to make eye contact with him before he continues talking. "I can't just be your friend anymore girl." He mumbles. A small frown takes over my face at his words and I go to say something but he cuts me off.

"I wanna be more than friends. More than your best friend. And I ain't asking you to be my girlfriend or nothing yet cause I know it's too soon but I'm asking for us to take it slow. See where things go. Because I know there ain't no way in hell I can just keep being 'best friends' with you. And I don't want nobody else to have you but me, so what's it gonna be?" He gives me a sly smile meanwhile my face feels as if it's absolutely burning up along with my insides feeling like complete and utter mush at his entire speech.