Demons

Chapter 19

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“I’m sorry, Lillian, but I’m afraid I can’t stay.” Zayn spoke, his accent bringing out his elegance, which did not match his appearance. Knew it. Pouting, I said goodbye to him and watched him walk back to his car and drive away.

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“Okay, I’m sorry about not answering your phone calls or texts but today was really stressful.” I apologized, following Lillian into the house and throwing my bag on the small table at the entrance.

“I forgive you.”

“Zayn is just a friend. I am definitely not cheating on Harry. I know what it feels like to be betrayed and I would never do that to him. Harry means too much to me. Well, Zayn does too.” I rambled and Lillian stopped and turned to look at me.

“Lacey, I never asked that,” She half-smiled.

“Oh, right. Um, well I am just going to go do – my homework I guess.” I chuckled nervously, grabbing my bag again and heading upstairs.

After showering and tidying up my room, I knew now was the time to make amends with my best friend. Ringing her cellphone over and over again, I was about to give up after my 8th try when a sweet hello captured my attention on the other end.

“Hey Ava.”

“Do you need something?” Ava’s sweetness simultaneously turned bitter.

“I’m just calling to make amends.” I clarified. She’s my best friend and I know full well how to deal with her rudeness.

“Well, what were you planning on saying?” Her voice remained harsh and distant, making it extremely difficult for me to remember that I want to be talking to her right now.

“Sorry for losing my shit on you.” I could hear her faint chuckle at my swear.

“And?” She is really fishing this out of me.

“And – Louis,” I groaned. I would never actually apologize directly to Louis for what I said to him, but for Ava’s sake, I would say anything for her to forgive me.

“Thank you. Now will you just tell me why you are so against drinking?” The concerned Ava’s voice returned bringing the smile on my face with it until panic returned.

“You’re underage.”

“You’re so difficult! It’s not a big deal, I promise. It was one night.” She laughed and we continued to talk for another hour. Words could not describe how much I love this girl. She doesn’t need the whole story to be there for me. That’s because you would never give her the whole story. As we talked about shopping on the weekends, my mind drifted off to Zayn. Our encounters today filled my mind swiftly and soon I wasn’t even paying attention to whatever Ava was blabbing about.

And while I blacked out of Ava's conversation, scenes would replay in my mind. I will be forever cursed with the ability to replay the moments that I experience in my life. However, unlike the utter opposites of Sandra beating me and having fun with Damian and Ava, there comes a gray area in my head: Zayn. With him, I experience all types of emotion possible. Except for love, of course. My mind seemed to be set on fire with questions and Zayn held the match. Whoever said that "Ignorance is bliss" obviously never had a single care in the world, something that I envy. But without care comes loneliness. And after all this time, that's the one thing I can't handle.

Ava had to go because she wanted to go hang out with Damian, but I was too tired to tag along. It was midnight! They always hang out super late, and I usually go too. Today was just too long though. I needed to clear my mind. Though I kept it a secret, I was a bit shaken up a bit from the Brutus thing. What would have happened if Zayn hadn’t been there to protect me? Would Brutus hurt me? Along with fear and confusion, I felt guilty because of the whole incident. This is the second time that I drove a wedge between Zayn and his friends. First Josh and Brutus now were ex-friends of Zayn, thanks to me. And then I remembered seeing Zayn texting Josh. It didn’t console me; Josh would make a terrible friend. And as those types of thoughts took over my clouded mind, I fell asleep.