LOVING FROM AFAR...

CHAPTER 43 CLOSURE

GABRIEL POV

QUESTIONS and pain covered me. Everywhere I look  I can see her uttering those word. I can hear it clearly. Its over! She said it like it was the most easiest word she had ever said.

I want to ask why? Why she want me out of her life? I want to ask why she didn't even let me explain anything?  Why she couldn't give me a valid reason? 

Gusto ko siyang kausapin. Gusto kong itanong lahat yon sa kanya. Gusto kong puntahan siya at sabihin na hindi ako susuko at ipaglalaban ko siya. Pero bakit ang hirap? Pero bakit natatakot ako? Bakit naiisip ko na baka ipagtabuyan niya lang ako palayo kagaya ng ginawa ni Ashley o ng iba pa? Bakit ang hirap mag risk na baka habang buhay na siyang mawawala?

I miss her. I miss her so much and thinking I will miss her forever is like a cutted pieces of glass scorching inside my heart. The pain can be compared to death.

My phone is my only strength hoping it vibrate and her name will registered on my caller i.d.. Hours and hours I keep on glimpsing and checking on it and even dialled her number but cancelled it again. Im going insane, or sooner or later I'm going to be out of my mind.

I love her so much that the idea of separating with her is like a nightmare. It hurts cause I'm not sure if she still feel the same.

Nagbantay ako mula parking lot hanggang lobby. Sa class building nila at pati na sa Canteen. France said she's absent at parang gusto pa akong suntukin kasi hindi ko alam.

"What kind of boyfriend are you when you didn't know what's happening to your girl?"

I remembered that.

Even Tricia don't want to say anything. What is weird is she keep on saying sorry for me but left when I asked why. She's Kath best friend what should I expect?

Mark is mum too. He said no words came from Tricia and the fact that she's not talking to her is obvious.

"Think about it man.. She did that exactly the time Ashley came. That girl is madly in love with you and for sure she was just jealous or insecure."

Sean stated giving me some positive perspective.

"and broken up with me is her way?"

"Wag ka ngang gago. Nasakatan siya kasi nagsinungaling ka at nakita pa niya si Ashley don sa condo mo sa tingin mo sinong babae ang di mag iisip ng masama?"

"Don't just sit her like everything is fine!"

I sigh concentrating on every words they are saying.

"Akala mo ba masaya ako sa ginagawa ko?"

"Then do something or else you will end up like before..Time is gold."

Mark reminding me the when Ashley left for New York. Her Mom gave me her address but I refused to accept it. That time I have faith in her love for me. That she will call and we will make up.  But after a couple of week I didn't received any. That's when I decided to follow but when I arrived it was too late. She was already with someone else.

I regret about it until I find myself happy again and then I realized that maybe it's all meant to happened. That she was meant to leave me so I can meet someone new. Someone that belongs to me, until now.

"I don't know..Hindi ko alam ang gagawin.."

"Damn it Gab! Be a man. Believing everything he told you was a bullshit. Go and talk to her. Beg if you need to. Just go.."

Sean and Gary agree as Mark said those words. After all they are right.  I'm such a jerk to believed she was telling the truth. It's all about Ash..its all about her and I know it. Kath is jealous and assumed wrong.