The Rose That Grew In The Concrete 2

Chapter 31✨

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Samira on the side😊😍😉☺️I know you guys have been waiting ages for me to update a lot but I've been having to get ready for my exams that are in June, the stress levels for me are real so I haven't had time to actually sit down and catchup with the amount of chapters.

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Maria's P.O.V

After the whole rico trying to have sex thing I sobered him up. I wasn't scared or anything cah I know he'll never hurt me. He's sleeping on my lap right now.

To make things clear for y'all I didn't blame him for the whole situation that occured. I just told him that if he listened to me when I told him to stay and let my dad deal with it I wouldn't have been in a coma for however many months I was, I wouldn't have been beaten, raped and abused none of this would have happened. I told him about all the problems I feel that we was going through and I pointed out the way he treats me. I didn't hold back on what I was writing. I had to tell him how I felt exactly so I did just that. That's what the therapist said I should do so I did exactly that. Ion feel like I blamed him - actually, I know for a fact I didn't - the way that he interpreted it was not my business. I know what I wrote. And I know he didn't read all of it. He only read the first few pages. I know there was a day that I felt that everything was my fault and I wrote all of that down in the journal. I guess we need to communicate more. That's most likely the problem..

He started moving around and then he woke up and looked at me. We stared at each other for a few minutes then he sat up and held my hand.

"Why did you say all that? Is that how you really feel?"i said.
"I was drunk-"
"When your drunk the truth comes out Rico" I said looking at him blankly.
"Maria you feeling some type of way when it comes to you being kidnapped I want you to tell me"
I shook my head and took my hands out of his.
"Why not?" He said sounding irritated
"Because ion wanna talk about it that's why!" I semi yelled.
He just stared at me.
"It's too much pain that I went through ion wanna bring it back up I'm just starting to get over it"
"You wrote in that book 'I can't get over something if I can't speak about it' YOU wrote that not me ma, you my wife. You been my wife and ion want you to turn into this zombie sake of some shit that, that nigga put you through"
He's right😓 I've been miserable ever since I got home and I've been taking my anger out on him.
"You wanna know everything?"
He nodded.
"He raped me, he beat me up and he almost killed me twice. The first month I was there i tried running away and he found me. That night he beat the shit out of me and knocked me in my head. I was in a coma for about 8 days, well that's what Bev told me. We got married but it wasn't legalised. He had a room full of pictures of my photoshoots from when I started. There was pictures of me and you but your face was scratched out. He made me wear a bandage over your name on my neck and I wasn't allowed to talk about you. He forced me to show him any type of affection even if I didn't want to. If I refused he would beat me. I almost lost Caleb multiple times. I started speaking to Bev and I started planning to escape but she told me she'll contact you. I guess she did because you found me. Ion resent you at all baby, I'm just hurt that you didn't listen to me when I told you that I had a bad feeling about that day. I'm hurt that you wasn't there when I was screaming for you when he beat the shit out of me. You wasn't there for me. I know it's not your fault. At first I thought it was your fault because you was the easiest person to blame. But then I came to realize that if it's anyone's fault it's mine. I brought him into my life and I was the one that brought him to our lives. I know that now"

He looked at me and pulled me to his chest.

"I'm sorry baby, I really i am, I promise you will never get hurt again it weren't your fault that this shit went down ma, that nigga had problems of his own" he kissed my head and rocked me back and forth.