Words are Words (Dan Smith - Bastille Fanfiction)

Chapter 36

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I nervously shivered as I waited for Dan to open the door, my arms folded over my chest to at least keep me warm for now. It was late, it was dark out. I knew that, but I just had to be somewhere, any where else than my apartment right now.

"Violet?" The door hastily opened, and when Dan saw who was waiting outside his house at this time of night, he opened it fully, no longer oblivious as to who it was.

I stared straight at him, his mouth barely forming a smile, his eyes telling a story of their own; but one I could not tell. I didn't have to speak,my steps taking me inside his house, walking past him as he shut the door and turned to face me. I breathed out, tears nearly falling off the ends of my eyes, but I contained them.

"What are you doing here this late?" He asked, his voice holding concern. I wasn't looking directly at him, but I could tell from the way he spoke.

I turned around slowly as he stared into my eyes, looking, waiting for an answer. He wanted me to explain, but for some reason I just couldn't bare to. The words dissolved on my tongue.

Luckily, the bruises weren't visible on my skin, if they were, he surely would've asked about them by now. Thinking about it made my stomach churn as I looked down at the floor then back up towards him.

I didn't think at all then, my actions taking over as I wrapped my arms around his shoulders, feet rising up to my tiptoes because of the noticeable height difference.

He nuzzled his head in my neck, neither one of us having to say anything because all I knew right now was the fact that I just wanted to be with him, I just wanted him to hold me. I just wanted to forget.

"Violet?" He murmered against my skin, making my heart rate rise. He was going to ask what was wrong, I could tell from the tone of his voice.

I stepped away from him, my breath stopped short in my chest, light drained from eyes, cheeks heated up, ablaze with embarrasment of what I was about to say. Could I actually tell him? Everything?.. It's too much.

Do I really have to tell him?

"Just kiss me." I spread my mouth from ear to ear in a obviously noticeable smile, I don't know where that came from. One minute ago, I was motionless. The only one possible emotion I felt: sadness. But now, this was the only other option than to tell him the truth about Jake. I just couldn't bring myself to do it.

His mouth curved to the side of his cheek forming into a smirk, his arms later folded as I strolled closer towards him. To my surprise, he backed away before we made any more further contact.

"This is all abit sudden."

He let me then drape my arms over his shoulders, his comment being ignored as I pressed my lips to his neck, my hands travelling up the other side of his face.

"Vi...are you s-" He complained, lifting his head up.

"Shutup." I replied, shaking my head from side to side as I smiled. I turned us both around, grabbing his relaxed arms; previously down by his sides and wrapped them around my waist. He didn't move them away... of course he didn't. He wanted this, and I, well, I wasn't denying it anymore than him.

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Still holding on to the side of Dan's face, I pressed my body closer to his, stumbling over him so we both falled on to the bed sheets. The lights were dim in his room, yet still bright enough to see the blueish grey of his eyes as I pulled away, my knees either side of his torso and one hand on the side of his face, my thumb running over his cheek.

My mouth curved into a faint smile as I leaned in towards his neck, pushing him further down into the pillows behind. I dragged my lips down his neck, sucking on his skin, leaving a trail of perfectly noticeable love bites.

"Y-you can't be doing this right now." Dan whispered, his eyes closed.

His comment was ignored as I moved my mouth on to his, kissing him senseless to get rid of all the bad thoughts racing around my mind. His emotions rapidly changed as he no longer seemed to care about what we were doing and the late time of night as he suddenly leant up towards me, taking the back of my head in his hand and pulling on strands of my hair from the back. It hurt a little, but I ignored the faint pain, it just added to the passion of the moment.

I leant my head back, smiling a little as he continued kissing my neck, moving his mouth up to my face, his scruffy bit of stubble tickling my face making me laugh. He ignored me, bit down on to my lower lip and groaned, his hands travelling under my shirt, pinky fingers on my hipbones; in an instant, naturally making me pull away and push at his chest for him to stop. I wouldn't normally react like this, but tonight my head was all over the place.

No. This time, his rough actions reminded me of Jake.

His eyes turned into full moons, wide open, full of bewilderment and worry.

"What is it?" He almost sighed. I was boring him, acting like this all the time. I could see it. He didn't want this. I didn't want this.

My eyes searched around his bedroom for the one possession in my grasp I brought with me, my bag. When I had spotted it; previously thrown on the floor in a spontaneous, lustful act for nothing but Dan, I grabbed it and, as fast as my feet would carry me, ran out his bedroom door and down the stairs, leaving him left clueless. I shook my head, shaking off the bad thoughts.

"Violet?" He shouted, inches behind me, but his voice sounding like an echo.

I had almost reached the end of the stairs when my head started to feel dizzy, I brought my hand up to my forehead, pressing my palm to the skin and my hand resting on the wall by me.

I tried to walk further, but my feet weirdly wouldn't move beneath me. Dan came up behind me, his hand supporting my back as I scrunched my eyes together. Surrounded by far too much, I couldn't stand anymore. My feet gave way underneath me, Dan's voice a distant blur shouting my name as my body hit the floor, a hand grabbing the back of my head as the last thing my eyes saw, was Dan.

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A/N:
First of all, the reason why this chapter is so short is because I wanted to end it on a cliffhanger (evil laugh), that way it is more dramatic haha but don't worry, the next chapter will hopefully be written for next month and it will be extra long.
Secondly, ahhhh 28K???!! 1000voteS???100 comments??!!! Crazy!!! Thankyou so much!!!!