Words are Words (Dan Smith - Bastille Fanfiction)

Chapter 24

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I closed my eyes briefly as I took in the cool breeze blowing inside from the car window. Dan was bringing me home after we stayed at the gardens for another few hours. I suddenly felt a firm jolt as the car pulled up outside my apartment. I sighed at the disappointment that this day was nearly over.

"Thanks for taking me out today, I had a great time." I told Dan as I looked over to him before rolling my window back up.

"Yeah..." He trailed off. I could tell he had something else to say but the words just didn't seem to come out of his mouth.

An uncomfortable silence filled the car as the warmth began to return through the windows, my legs beginning to sink into the leather seats.

"So..I'll see you tomorrow?" Dan blurted, surprising me as I forced my smile to stay in.

"Umm, I'm at work tomorrow, b-"

"Sorry, uh, clingy much." Dan replied as he fidgeted in his seat.

"No, I was going to say, there's a book sale outside at Stone Acre park.." I recalled, rooting into my rucksack and pulling out a scrunched up leaflet I had printed the other day. I handed it to him and smiled. "You should come."

He took it out of my hand as his eyes focused on the printed words, glancing around the page.

"I dunno, I mean..I want to, I just.."

"Yeah. I get it." I mumbled, realising how stupid I must've looked.

"Is this right?" Dan suddenly asked, completely changing the subject of conversation.

"What do you mean?" I questioned, acting like I didn't know what he was going to say but I knew at some point this topic of conversation would crop up.

"Well.." He began as he glanced out of the window at a passing car and then turned back to me. I gulped as I waited for his comment.

"You have a boyfriend. And right now, I feel I've been spending more time with you than he has, and I just don't know if this is a good idea.."

"There's nothing wrong with what were doing. I mean, we're just friends." I replied raising my eyebrows at him.

"Why don't you tell your boyfriend that."

His response shocked me, I tried to say something but honestly I just didn't know what else to say.

"I..I d-"

"Look, you know what.." He began, turning his body to face me as his smile returned. "Forget it, forget what I said. I'll see you soon okay?" He muttered, looking into my eyes.

As much as I tried to forget, I couldn't. What he was saying was completely and utterly true and..I was just lying to myself. At the end of the day, I was with Dan a lot more than I was with Jake in some respects. Even though Jake was my boyfriend it felt like Dan was closer to me than anyone was right now.

"Yeah...okay." I forced a smile, stepping out of the car.

This time there was nothing, no last moment to remember how we left each other. No kiss, no hug, no nothing. Not even an awkward hand shake. Just a smile that probably didn't even look genuine.

I waved goodbye to him before entering my house and pulling my sandals off of my feet, chucking them at the corner of the hallway as I heard Dan's car drive away. I looked out of the corner of the white curtains as I sighed and made my way upstairs. Jake wasn't home today, which was actually infact a relief. It seems these days he's mostly in my apartment more than he is in his own.