🩹scared | taegyu

🩹sixty-one

stay strong; you're not alone

.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。.

everything happens to quickly. the woman yanks beomgyu away from him and pulls him up onto his feet. she screams offensive slurs at taehyun, who can hardly see anything past his tears. 

beomgyu tries to fight her off, he desperately wants to comfort his boyfriend. at this piece of shit is trying her best to sabotage him. "let me go!" beomgyu screams, trashing in her tight grip. 

"don't fight against her, hyung!" taehyun cries as he watches beomgyu attempt to get away from her. "i don't want you to get hurt, don't fight against her, please." 

"oh, shut up." beomgyu's step-mum shouts at him. the familiar feeling of a pit of fire starts boiling in taehyun's stomach. 

"you can insult me!" beomgyu screams at her, "but never- never talk to taehyun like that, ever!" 

"don't worry about me, hyun." the older yells, watching his boyfriend hysterically wipe his tears. "i'll be alright, i promise!"

"promise!" taehyun whispers, "promise you'll be okay."

"get home safely, don't stay up too late and remember to eat well!" beomgyu yells, "stay strong and remember you're not alone!"

beomgyu wishes he could at least hug him goodbye. but he can't escape his step-mum's claws and she manages to pull him away. he keeps his eyes on taehyun for as long as he can, it's difficult watching him cry like that. beomgyu hates himself for making taehyun cry like that. 

taehyun watches beomgyu as he slowly stops trying to fight against her. she drags him towards the park's exit with a young girl in her heels. he's worried beomgyu might get hit or even worse by her and his dad. 

taehyun's eyes follow beomgyu all the way to the large gates and blinks away his tears. but when he opens his eyes again, beomgyu is gone. 

overwhelmed by everything that just happened, taehyun starts having a panic attack. he stops breathing as he watches the world spin around him. taehyun doesn't know if he's screaming or completely quiet. all he knows is that there's a throbbing pain in his chest and he's suffocating. 

the tears pour down his face as he gets up from the blanket. he has to throw up. he attempts to get as far away from the path to vomit, but only manages to get two steps away from their picnic before he throws up by the trunk of the beautiful oak tree. 

"fuck, i'm sorry pal." taehyun whispers as he wipes his mouth on the sleeve of his coat. he gives the tree a loving pat as an apology. he wants to scream. 

he can't breathe as he starts packing everything back into the picnic basket. taehyun feels like shit, because he just threw up all the lovely food beomgyu prepared for their date. he feels bad for wasting the older's money like that. 

choking back the vomit that is trying to force it's way out of his mouth for several minutes, makes him feel even worse. he was over the moon less than ten minutes ago, but now it's all gone. beomgyu is gone. 

taehyun doesn't care that he's in public, he has to let it all out. loud sobs rip out of his throat as he realizes he doesn't know when he'll see beomgyu again. he doesn't know when he'll hear his voice again, make him laugh or see him smile. his last memory of beomgyu is watching him fight back tears as his step-mum forces him away. taehyun wishes he'd kept his eyes closed. 

falling to his knees as he tries to breathe again. the memory of beomgyu consoling him during a panic attack pops into his mind and he hears beomgyu's voice; "smell the flower, make a wish and blow out the candle." 

taehyun attempts to regain his breath for multiple minutes before he manages to calm down. he feels completely lost in the large park now that beomgyu is gone. the sun is setting and he doesn't want to be alone. 

his mums won't be back home until tomorrow evening and he doesn't want to worry them any more than he already has. so he calls the first person that comes to mind. waiting for them to answer takes only a few seconds and when they do, taehyun feels the tears stream down his face.

"ning-" he cries into the phone he's clutching tightly in his hand. 

"shh, tyun," huening kai hushes him quietly, trying to console his hyung. 

"beom-beomgyu." is all the older manages to get out. 

"i know, i know tyun." huening kai hushes, his voice calms taehyun down rather quickly. 

"beomgyu-" taehyun continues, wanting to explain what just happened to them. 

"i know, jaehyun texted me a few minutes ago. i'm on my way right now, so just stay where you are and i'll come find you." 

"you are?" taehyun sniffles, holding the checkered blanket in his fist. 

"yes and soobin and yeonjun are on their way too. just stay where you are and don't go anywhere, alright?"

 taehyun stays by the oak as he had promised, quietly crying his eyes out, suddenly aware of all the late night joggers. huening kai stays on the phone with him until the trio arrives. 

taehyun has to wait less than ten minutes before he has three sets of arms wrapped around him like a shield. he has never needed his friends more that today, so this moment means the entire world to him. 

after a few minutes huening kai and soobin start packing together the last picnic items. but yeonjun doesn't want to let go of the younger. earlier he noticed the vomit by the tree trunk and remembers taehyun telling him that he throws up during panic attacks. he hugs taehyun one last time and gives him a comforting pat on the back.

"let's get you home, tyun." yeonjun whispers as he helps taehyun up. he lets taehyun climb onto his back and gives him a piggyback ride all the way to his house. 

soobin and huening kai carry the heavy picnic basket between them. the three try cheering him up, but it doesn't work. taehyun can't hear anything except beomgyu's voice; "stay strong and remember you're not alone." 

thankfully, the three boys stay the night to keep taehyun safe. huening kai and taehyun share the older's twin bed, whilst soobin and yeonjun share a mattress on the floor and fight over the blanket. 

they try their best to put a smile on his face, but it's pretty difficult. taehyun has to throw up multiple times during the night, but yeonjun pulls his hair back and strokes his stomach. soobin has to inform hyejin about the state of her son and huening kai runs to the pharmacy for anxiety and stomach medicine. 

taehyun feels really sad, the tears seem like they'll never stop, but at least he doesn't feel alone.  finally, he has real friends that care about him. 

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another update!!

do you have friends that care about you? or are you the friend that cares?