🩹scared | taegyu

🩹forty-two

where it hurts

.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。.

"kang taehyun! you fucking psychopath!"

!! tw for those with tomophobia !!

huening kai grips taehyun's hand tightly as they ride in the ambulance. the air is stuffy and taehyun's eyes are filled with tears. a transport nurse holds a cloth under his bloody nose and a hand on his neck brace to keep him stable. 

their uniforms are ripped and bloodstained. the ambulance bumps along the road on the way to the hospital. taehyun chokes back his tears as he watches his friend suffer. 

"hyung, it's okay. we'll be alright." huening kai says reassuringly to the other who's breaking out in tears. everything is spinning and he can't see properly, suddenly feeling claustrophobic inside the ambulance. 

"but-" taehyun tries, holding his hand tighter. 

"no buts- we'll be fine." huening kai says with a pained smile as the sound of a siren fill their ears. 

"miss, is-is this serious? can he die?" taehyun asks, his voice breaks as he chokes back a sob. 

"you friend's breathing is very unstable. he won't die, you'll both be okay. we just have to hurry to get you checked, in case there's any internal bleeding." she explains, putting an oxygen mask on huening kai's mouth. 

"i can't believe you pushed me out of the way." taehyun sobs, huening kai's eyes close. he must be exhausted because of all the pain. 

"this is all my fault." taehyun continues, but the other responds with a light shake of the head. 

huening kai is laying on a stretcher and taehyun is sitting next to him, holding his hand. the younger had followed him when he ran out of the school yard. and caught up with him easily because of his long legs. 

he then managed to push the older out of the way, only to be hit by the car himself. which had left him with what looked like a twisted arm and trauma to the head. taehyun felt guilty, more than you can ever imagine. 

huening kai could have died. taehyun didn't care about his own life, he didn't matter. but huening kai's? that was definitely more important than his own. and now he was guilty and in pain. 

 

"kai kamal huening! are you crazy?!" huening kai's mama yells, pointing at the cast on his arm with a long finger. 

"we were playing football and i shot the ball onto the road. i was just going to get it!" huening kai lies to his mum and taehyun's stomach is in knots. 

the youngest has his arm in a cast and has to wear a neck brace to bed for a month. his face is dinged up and he has a swollen eye. taehyun only has a swelling bump on his head and a slightly fractured nose. 

"haven't it taught you to look left and right when crossing the road!" she continues, obviously worried sick about her injured son. taehyun feels a sickening feeling creeping up his throat. 

"where is my mommy?" taehyun whispers to himself with teary eyes. 

he sits alone in the ER, huening kai and his fuming mama a few metres away on a hospital bed. taehyun isn't very injured and has been pushed to the side by the nurses. and it isn't until yongsun comes to check up on him twenty minutes later, he finally feels safe. 

"taehyun, are you alright? hyejin can't come right now, there has been a change of shifts after mooonbyul had to take a sick leave." 

"i understand. thanks for coming to check up on my. mommy's lucky to have you." taehyun smiles, giving her a hug. her blonde hair tickles his face and it makes him laugh. 

"i'm off now. do you want me to take you home? mum's shift doesn't end before one fifteen," yongsun says, "and it's ten past eleven." 

"yes please, that would be lovely."

"and we need to get you out of this dreadful uniform." yongsun laughs, referring to the darkening blood stains on his vest. 

 

taehyun lies down on the sofa as soon as they get home. yongsun starts preparing lunch and he wonders why she doesn't just move in already. it doesn't bother him when she's around, he likes her company. 

"yongsun-ah!" taehyun yells from the sofa and she hurries into the living room. 

"what? are you in pain? are you hurting anywhere? do you want painkillers?" she asks in a worried tone. 

"no, no. i was just wondering when you wanted to live here permanently..." taehyun looks over at her with a shy smile.

"or haven't you and mommy talked about it? i'm fine with it! you're really nice to me and i'd love it if you lived here with us. i love having you around." 

as taehyun finishes, he notices that her eyes have welled up with tears. but before he can say anything more, she breaks out into a wide grin. before letting out a loud cry. 

"taehyun! you don't understand how happy i am to hear that!" 

and then she leaves to wipe her tears. taehyun feels lonely on the sofa. overwhelmed by the sudden memories he has in this excact living room. 

"i wish you were here." he whispers sadly. imagining beomgyu in front of him with a wide smile. maybe he'd even give me a kiss where it hurts?

"this is where it hurts, choi beomgyu." he whispers with a sigh, placing his hand on his heart. 

"please make it stop." he continues, "i don't care anymore, just pretend we're okay."

his heart aches and it hurts to breathe. the car accident didn't hurt as much as this does. he misses beomgyu, he doesn't care if he hates him or is disgusted by him. he just wants beomgyu to ring the doorbell and help him with his homework. 

he doesn't need beomgyu to comfort him. or tell him that he loves him. he just wants to go back to normal. taehyun just wants to learn about the second world war and atoms. nothing matters anymore. i just want to see you. 

and remembering the kisses on this very couch breaks his heart. taehyun feels his world crumble at the thought of beomgyu kissing someone else. someone who is a girl. someone who isn't him. 

and after lunch taehyun excuses himself to go "rest" in his bedroom. yongsun follows him to bed, closing the curtains. she kisses him on the forehead with a happy smile, before turning off the lights to leave. 

"yongsun?" taehyun's whisper is somewhere in the dark. 

"yeah?" 

"i understand why mommy loves you." and why i love him. 

☁️

at least i didn't kill taehyun :)

i love you ♡
life goes on, let's live on
amirite?