🩹scared | taegyu

🩹twenty-five

what's on your mind?

.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。.

beomgyu sits in a borrowed sweater  behind taehyun's desk, reading the chapter about the second world war out loud.

saying something about how blah blah is important to remember. and some blah blah blah is also important to memorise.

taehyun feels overwhelmed to say the least. sighing, because he has not being able to take in any information. scratching his head as he he lets out quiet yawn.

it goes unnoticed by beomgyu, who reads something about some man aloud. taehyun can't make himself listen, this is just too boring.

his eyelids grow heavy and he fights off another yawn. trying his best to not close his eyes completely and fall asleep. but the urge is just too strong.

he closes his eyes, listening to beomgyu's soft voice. it sends occassional shivers across his arms, that are hidden under his big hoodie. and taehyun feels odd.

he falls asleep for a short minute or two. but when his head falls forward, almost hitting his desk, he wakes up with a jolt.

"are you alright?" beomgyu asks, sending a look of concern towards the younger.

"yeah, you can keep reading-" taehyun says quietly, covering his mouth to disguise his yawn yet again.

beomgyu continues and taehyun takes a sip of water from his glass, to try to wake up. it doesn't help, it only makes him feel a little queasy. his head lulls from side to side, still fighting against the urge to take a nap.

but yet again, he falls asleep. head drooping from side to side until it lands on beomgyu's shoulder.

the older tenses, the words he's reading get jumbled in his mouth and he feels flustered. taehyun, however, feels content, snuggling closer to beomgyu. completely oblivious to what he's doing.

the minutes tick by and beomgyu just sits there in silence, with taehyun's small head on his shoulder. he doesn't know if he should wake him up or let him sleep. he must be tired. 

"taehyun? are you sleeping?" beomgyu whispers, but there comes no answer.

he carefully turns his head to look at the younger. taehyun's eyes are closed and his cheek is squished against the older's shoulder. 

he looks so small. his chest carefully rises and falls as he breathes with a steady pace. and his eyes move behind his eyelids. he isn't completely asleep yet. beomgyu can't help but smile at taehyun's sweater paws and open mouth. he looks extra small today. 

instead of waking taehyun up, beomgyu flips through the magazines on taehyun's desk. reading the small notes scribbled next to pictures of runway models. v-necks look really good on the man with the prominent collar bones. 

chuckling to himself as he sees a large picture of hailey baldwin in a two-piece. taehyun has drawn small heart around her and written wow, she's so stunning in the bottom left corner of the photo. 

after a while the magazines start to bore him, so he text soobin for a while. quietly chuckling to himself as looks at the memes huening kai has spammed in the groupchat.

only looking up from his phone when he hears a car pull up into the driveway. the car-door slams shut and the front door unclocks. beomgyu grows worried, he doesn't want to see taehyun's mum. 

taehyun wakes up when the door shuts in the hallway. groggily adjusting his eyes to the light in his bedroom. he looks up at beomgyu with droopy eyes, a confused look on his face. and a rose blush grows on his cheeks and ears as he realizes how close their faces are. 

"how long was i asleep for?" taehyun whispers, sitting up with a yawn. ruffling his hai a little.

"twenty minutes, maybe?" beomgyu says, looking at his watch.

the familiar warmth spreads across taehyun's chest as the words come out of the older's mouth. twenty minutes? and he didn't even wake me up. 

a knock on the door interrupts both of their thoughts. and when it opens, hyejin pops her head inside. she has a big smile on her face, but it falters as she sees beomgyu. sighing before she lets out a loud "fuck!" 

beomgyu visibly tenses, assuming she does not want him there. he grabs the chair he's sitting on with a firm grip. taehyun sends his mum a 'look what you've done' look.

"oh my god!" she says, realising how rude she just sounded.

"i didn't mean to scare you beomgyu! i only swore because i only bought one piece of cake. i didn't expect you to be here. i'm sorry." she says worriedly, lifting up a small box from the local bakery. 

beomgyu relaxes his shoulders and taehyun pats his arm. it's comforting. at least taehyun thinks small touches are comforting. they make you feel taken care of and loved. taehyun thinks beomgyu needs to know he's loved. because he definetly is. 

"it's fine-" beomgyu chokes out, letting go of the chair, rubbing his hands together. 

"no it isn't!" she sighs, stomping her feet in self-hatred as she speaks. her eyebrows are cross and she looks properly upset with herself. 

"mum, it's fine, we'll share the cake. right, beomgyu?" taehyun assures his mum, looking over at the other boy. 

"we don't have to. i'm fine-" beomgyu says with a small smile. 

"shush, i know you want a cake break." taehyun interrupts, followed by a small giggle. 

"i'll get you forks." hyejin says, "it's a gooey cake." 

taehyun sends her a nod, before she leaves to get them utensils. beomgyu lets out a breath he doesn't know he's holding. the other looks at him with a worried expression.

"i'm sorry she keeps making you anxious. i don't know how to make it any less scary." taehyun aplogogises.

beomgyu shakes his head, "it's fine, taehyun. i'm alright."

when she returns she has two small forks in het hands and the cake is on a floral patterned plate. both of the boys thank her for the dessert and she excuses herself to take a shower. 

taehyun doesn't particularly like the consistency of the cake, but beomgyu seems to think it's heavenly. they don't talk at all as they eat. the only sound to be heard is the clock on the wall ticking and beomgyu's quiet chewing. 

taehyun stares off into nothing for a while. not realizing that he has zoned out. beomgyu notices after a while. swallowing the cake as quietly as possible to not disgust the younger. before deciding to say something. 

"what's on your mind?" he asks, licking his fork with a raised brow.

taehyun stiffens ever so slightly. catching himself mid-thought and realises what his mindless thinking has been about. you, he wants to say. my head is filled with you. 

but he decides on a safer option, "nothing, i'm just enjoying the cake."
  

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