🩹scared | taegyu

🩹five

stomach on fire

.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。.

taehyun woke up, his stomach was still acting up. it was a quarter past five in the morning, his voice echoed as he yells for his mum. sitting up, retching loudly and throwing up on his duvet. it smells sour and burns in his throat. his mum opens the door, bucket in hand and a worried expression on her face. 

taehyun makes grabby hands towards her and she quickly hands him the bucket before he is sick again. he hurries to the bathroom with the bucket and sits down next to the toilet. his anxiety was no joke and it was starting to take a toll on his body. 

he could hear his mum cleaning up his bed and changing the bedsheets. she wiped down the plastic sheets that were protecting his matress and he threw up again. his stomach was on fire and he wished he had eaten more, throwing up like this was painful.

after a while of dry-heaving over the toilet, his mum came inside the bathroom, to check on him. taehyun looked like he hadn't eaten for 3 days straight and that he hadn't slept anything in a decade.  she wore a worried expression like always, sitting down next to him. 

taehyun's stomach gurgled loudly and he nearly threw up at the sound. his mum took her phone from her pocket and began playing music to distract him. it always worked. she played Q by onewe loudly, the music echoed inside the bathroom as taehyun cried. his stomach was burning, the stomach acid was painful in his throat as he swallowed. 

⭒❃.✮:▹

later on in the day taehyun's mum sent a text to seulgi, saying taehyun was sick and couldn't make it to school. but eventually had to leave for work herself, leaving taehyun home alone. he was still feeling nauseous, but knew that he had to rest well and take a shower later that day. 

after half an hour in front of the toilet, he managed to walk over to his bed. his mum had already placed his sick bucket next to his side. he climbed under the duvet and fell asleep for a long time. 

he woke up occasionally, but fell back asleep. at a quarter to ten, he woke up and couldn't fall back asleep again. he wasn't tired anymore, but it took lots of will-power to climb out of the warm bed to take a shower. 

he showered for nineteen songs, which was very unusual for him. taehyun would always shower for a strict three songs, or four if he was very cold. but nineteen? his mum was definetly going to complain about that later. 

he didn't bother blow-drying his hair, because that took too much effort. instead he just ruffled it with his towel and called it good. he put on his basketball shorts and his mum's sweater. the nausea had calmed down a lot, but he had to take painkillers, because his headache was nearly unbearable. 

he walked around for a few minutes, not knowing what to do. but then his stomach growled and he felt hungry. taehyun walked to the kitchen, he already knew what he was going to eat. and what he was going to watch on tv. 

taehyun practically lived off of crackers, ginger and cola after panic attacks like these. it calmed his sick feeling and wasn't to gross to get down. he didn't eat before he knew it was 'safe' and wouldn't come up again. so it was around lunch time when he sat down in front of the tv, putting a big box of crackers, ginger candies and a coca cola bottle in front of him on the coffee table. 

he binged boy story dance practises and watched the first two episodes of brooklyn nine-nine, before falling asleep. taehyun didn't feel nauseous anymore, but didn't want to go to school tomorrow anyway. 

⭒❃.✮:▹

half past two the doorbell woke taehyun up. he rubbed his eyes, quickly checking the time before getting up to answer the door. cracking his knuckles, before unlocking the front door and opening it. 

a dog immediately poked his head inside, rocky. it made taehyun jump backwards. huening kai stood on the other side, holding rocky on a dog leash. taehyun looks at him, before noticing another boy next to him. it's soobin, the crying boy from yesterday.  

the pair were still in their uniforms, huening kai's shirt was unbottoned because of the warm weather. and soobin was holding his blazer in his hands, pushing up his glasses as taehyun tried to say something.

he bows at them, a puzzled expression on his face. huening kai has a big smile on his face as he hands taehyun a pile of books. 

"seulgi asked me to deliver your homework." he says, soobin kicks at the rocks on the ground. shuffling his feet, probably feeling out of place.

"thanks." taehyun says in a small voice, taking the books, putting them on the table next to the front door. rocky pants softly and taehyun bends down to pet him on the head. 

"would you mind giving him some water?" huening kai asks and taehyun opens the door wider as he nods his head. gesturing for the pair and the dog to enter his home.

"it has been a really hot couple of days." the youngest adds and soobin nods. 

he hurries to the kitchen to fill a bowl with water. returning a minute later, putting it down in front of the shiba inu. who immediately starts drinking. soobin chuckles at the dog. taehyun suddenly feels nervous, fiddling with the bottom of his shorts. looking down at the floor, then at rocky, who's happily drinking. 

taehyun feels sick again. looking at himself. had his legs always looked this pale? had the dark hairs always stuck out like this? had he always looked like this? since when? the thoughts churn inside his head as the trio stand in silence. all they can hear is the dog drinking. 

taehyun feels the sourness in his throat, but manages to keep it down. huening kai thanks him for the water and they leave, rocky's paws are wet and the paw prints are visible on the floor in the sunlight.

taehyun forces a smile as he waves them off quietly. before shutting the door and running to the bathroom again, retching over the sink. why was he like this?

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