🩹scared | taegyu

🩹fifty-seven

 finally brave enough.

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"it's really cold outside, so let's stay warm." beomgyu announces after they've put on their shoes. 

he wraps a checkered scarf around taehyun's neck as he says it. then he helps taehyun zip up his coat too since he's already wearing his polar bear mittens. 

"you need a hat." the older says, pulling a blue knitted hat over taehyun's head. making sure his cute ears are covered, so he won't get earache. 

"thanks, hyung." taehyun smiles cutely. 

beomgyu readjusts the knitted hat on his own head before zipping up his own coat too. and taehyun watches him put on hyejin's penguin mittens with a smile on his face. taehyun helps tuck the mittens into the coats sleeves so beomgyu won't get cold. 

"we're matching." taehyun says, showing his mittens to beomgyu before holding his hand. 

"we're so fucking cool it's actually insane." beomgyu says with a cheeky smile and it makes taehyun laugh. 

the sick feeling in his stomach is at ease whenever beomgyu speaks. that's why taehyun is glad he's so talkative. 

"let's go!" beomgyu says excitedly as he opens the front door and they happily walk outside. the air is icy against their faces, but it's fine as long as they're together. 

taehyun tucks his chin further into his scarf as beomgyu closes the door behind them. they make their way down the garden path, hand in hand.

the small plum tree by the metal gate sways in the wind. the sound of an unlocking car makes beomgyu stop in his tracks. 

"fuck! we have to lock the door." beomgyu lets out loudly. and taehyun laughs as they turn around. 

beomgyu lets go of his hand and rushes inside to find the spare key hyejin had given him yesterday. taehyun stays outside, feeling the refreshing air seep into his warm lungs. the air stings a bit, but taehyun enjoys the feeling. 

beomgyu quickly finds the key in the key-cupboard in the hallway. and hurries back outside to lock the door. taehyun laughs as the older makes his way back down the path.

"fuck! we forgot the dog!" beomgyu says taehyun screams out in laughter and snatches the key from beomgyu's hand to retrieve the sleeping dog from the bathroom. 

and after twenty minutes of attempting to go for a walk, with the dog this time, they're finally out on the pavement and actually walking. 

beomgyu holds rocky's leash in one hand and taehyun's mitted hand in the other. rocky sniffs around and jumps on the autumn leaves on the ground, it reminds the pair of huening kai, who acts almost the same in autumn. well, except walking on all fours and smelling things on the ground. unless they're flowers of course. 

taehyun tightens his grip on beomgyu's hand as the other starts swinging their arms between them. he starts humming a quiet melody. their noses turn pink in the cold and beomgyu's cheeks are bright pink. 

they look like two kids walking their family dog as they make their way down the street. their winter coats are a size too big, which makes them look small. and their colourful knitted hats and childish mittens are the cherries on top. 

they walk in silence. listening to the resident birds chirping happily now that the migrant birds have left for their holidays across the globe. taehyun's world starts spinning little by little and white clouds fog his vision. 

beomgyu notices how taehyun's walk is a bit odd and stops. the younger does too, sending a confused look towards beomgyu. "are you alright?"

"of course," taehyun smiles, pretending the bright clouds don't bother him. 

"don't even try lying to me, dumbass." beomgyu says sternly, looking over at rocky to make sure he isn't to close to the road. 

"i'm actually super dizzy, hyung. can we stop?"

"of course, you idiot." beomgyu says worriedly, pulling taehyun and rocky towards a nearby bench. 

"sit down for a bit." the older says and taehyun carefully does. rocky looks up at him with big eyes and he pets his head. beomgyu sits down next taehyun on the bench, gently wrapping an arm around him. 

"put your head between your legs. it'll stop you from fainting." the older says, putting his hand on the back of taehyun's head, gently pushing it downwards. 

taehyun feels dizzy, but smiles as he notices beomgyu sitting with his head between his thighs too. 

"how do you know this helps?" taehyun asks, his voice is stuffy because he's almost upsidedown. 

"soobin taught me." beomgyu explains, "he read about it on the internet to help me out." 

"did you have to do it a lot? is that why you remember it so well?" 

"yeah." beomgyu says quietly. feeling a bit embarrassed as he remembers taehyun seeing him faint in the locker rooms way back then. 

"is it because of the dark?" the younger asks, scooting closer to beomgyu and takes his hand again. 

"yeah, but it's better now." beomgyu whispers, the wind almost drowns him out. luckily, taehyun hears every word he says. 

"i even used to be afraid of closing my eyes when i was younger." the older moves his head to look over at taehyun through his legs.

"but look at me now," he smiles, shutting his eyes happily. 

taehyun's chest feels warm at the sight of a healing beomgyu. he's beyond proud of him for fighting even when he has wanted to give up. and for mending himself when he was broken and all alone. 

"am i not super cool, hyun?" beomgyu says with a smile. "i'm even good at making up believable stories! my step-mum thinks i'm having a study marathon with huening kai this weekend, for an exam i invented." 

"wow, you're so badass." taehyun laughs, looking down at his shoes.

"i'm proud of you, beomgyu-hyung." he adds, before sitting back up to look at beomgyu properly. the older sits up too, gently patting rocky's head.

"i'm proud of you too, hyun." beomgyu smiles, his cheeks are red and it hurts to smile in the cold. 

"i'm happy that you feel at ease with me. and that you're happy." taehyun says, "i'm glad we met." 

"i'm glad we met too, now i'm finally brave enough."

"brave enough for what?" taehyun asks curiously. 

"brave enough to do this in public." beomgyu says, putting his free hand behind taehyun's head and pulls him closer. 

taehyun's chest explodes in butterflies as beomgyu courageously kisses him right on the lips. their skin is cold, but that makes it even more magical. an odd warmth spreads across his face as beomgyu's lips touch his, as if they have some sort of magical connection. 

taehyun definitely loves this beomgyu the most, the brave beomgyu with a healing heart. he wishes this beomgyu stays for a long time, maybe even forever. 

as they shyly pull apart, rocky barks happily at them. taehyun's heart feels warm in the freezing cold. their eyes are locked and taehyun can't help but smile, he's happy beomgyu is finally brave.

"and now that you're in here," beomgyu says, placing a hand on his heart,

"i'm brave enough to do anything." 
  
  

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