🩹scared | taegyu

🩹thirty-six

he loves to feel loved

.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。.

taehyun wakes up with his hand in beomgyu's grey locks. beomgyu has wrapped his leg over taehyun's body, it makes taehyun's heart flutter when he realises it. beomgyu isn't heavy, so it takes the younger a few minutes to notice it. 

taehyun carefully brushes the grey hairs out of beomgyu's eyes. the other scrunches his nose cutely in his sleep and his eyes move behind his eyelids. taehyun quickly moves his hands away from beomgyu, worried he'll wake him up.

the rain knocks softly on taehyun's bedroom window and the sound of cars wizzing past creates a nice atmosphere. it's a quarter past seven. and the sun peeps in through the large curtains covering the window. 

it's a nice and quiet morning. and taehyun wants to enjoy this for as long as it'll last. he inspects every little feature of the other's pretty face. beomgyu isn't perfect. a few scars here and there, a zit on his nose and cheek. but taehyun thinks he's beautiful. he's perfect right now. 

beomgyu stirs a bit in his sleep and taehyun quickly closes his eyes, pretending to be asleep. after a minute, taehyun opens one eye and sees beomgyu fast asleep again. it makes him smile. but then beomgyu scrunches his nose again, but this time it looks painful.

"i'm sorry, i won't do it again. i'm sorry." beomgyu mutters in his sleep. tossing and turning a bit, he painfully squeezes his eyes closed. 

"hyung, wake up." taehyun pats his shoulder, "beomgyu wake up." 

"i'm up, i'm sorry, i won't do it again." beomgyu sits up in a quick motion, almost wide awake. he looks around with a confused look on his face. 

"hyung? are you alright?" 

and when beomgyu realises he isn't at home, but at taehyun's house instead, he lies back down with a small smile. snuggling further into the duvet as he turns towards taehyun again. 

"yeah, what should we do today?"

taehyun sighs content. they're on the sofa in taehyun's living room. a random episode of modern family plays on the television as beomgyu almost dozes off. being up all night in the park hasn't done him any good. 

"beomgyu. don't fall asleep, this is the funny part!" taehyun complains pointing at the television. 

"i'm so tired, oh my god." beomgyu yawns. he pulls his knees up to his chest, wanting to get some more rest. 

but instead of respecting beomgyu's wish to take a nap, taehyun playfully pokes the older in the side, just to annoy him. who responds with a yelp, sending an angry brow in taehyun's direction. "i'm ticklish. stop it!" 

beomgyu tries to push taehyun away as he continues to pester him with childish pokes. but before they even know it, they're wrestling each other on the sofa, trying to tickle each other until they pee themselves. 

taehyun isn't ticklish, and easily tickles beomgyu until he can't breathe. beomgyu falls back on the sofa, with taehyun on top of him, both heaving for air as taehyun holds the older's arms over his head. 

beomgyu's grey hair falls into his eyes and he lets out a quiet laugh. chest rising and falling at a quick pace as he tries to regain his breath. he looks so pretty. 

but now they're a mess on the sofa. and taehyun is kinda laying on top of beomgyu, hugging him so he won't fall down. and taehyun realizez how much he's been aching to kiss beomgyu for forever. 

just as taehyun is about to sit upright again, forcing the thoughts of kissing the older out of his head, beomgyu wraps his hands around his neck. pulling him back down until they're centimetres apart. 

taehyun's heartbeat quickens and he holds his breath. "hyung? what are you-" 

but taehyun can't finish his sentence, because beomgyu leans in and plants his lips on taehyun's in a split second. it takes taehyun by surprise and he doesn't know how to react at first. his chest is about to explode as reality hits him. 

and then taehyun kisses him back, his heart is almost beating out of his chest as he struggles to breathe. he has never done this before, is he doing it right? 

it's a sweet first kiss. something taehyun will remember for a long time. his first proper kiss with a boy. beomgyu breaks the kiss first, to catch his breath. and as they part, taehyun realises something; he loves this, he loves beomgyu.  

taehyun wants it again, he wants to kiss beomgy again. and just as the other is about to break the silence too, taehyun leans down and reconnects their lips. the butterflies go crazy in his stomach and he feels euphoric. 

beomgyu does too, surprised by taehyun's sudden confidence as he feels the younger close to him. taehyun smiles into the kiss, breathing in beomgyu's familiar scent. he smells like clean laundry and shampoo. 

one kiss turns into two, which turns into many kisses. taehyun has wanted this for so long and can't hold himself back anymore. beomgyu tastes of warmth and toothpaste. he puts his hands in beomgyu's grey hair, re-adjusting himself ontop the older. 

beomgyu feels squashed and tries to sit up. and taehyun ends up in his lap. their bodies are tangled together. and it's a miracle hyejin has left for an extra shift at work this saturday morning. 

imagine the shock of seeing your son and his tutor making out on your sofa. not that she's against it or anything. she'd just be sad taehyun hasn't mentioned anything about being  in love with him to her. 

beomgyu carefully re-wraps his arms around taehyun's neck, gently pushing the younger down onto his back. reversing their earlier position. 

taehyun knows beomgyu has some sort of feelings for him. and it makes him feel like he's worth something. finally someone else likes me for the way i am. the kiss proves to him that he's valid and loved by someone who isn't his mum. 

and taehyun doesn't know how long they kiss for, but it's certainly not long enough. he loves to feel loved. 

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