Love Me Again (Taehyung X Reader)

Chapter 7: "More alone than ever before."

Taehyung POV:

As much as I wanted to see Y/N, I knew I had to give myself some distance from her. The time I spent with her yesterday wasn't enough to bring back any of the memories we had together. As much as I wanted to hold on and hope that one day she would remember me, there was no guarantee of that happening. What if she never remembered me? The thought was almost enough to completely destroy me.

I was waiting in the lobby when Y/N's parents, Lenore and Alex, came down. Her mom hugged me and her dad shook my hand. "Thanks for coming back Tae," Lenore said. "I appreciate it."

"No problem. For the last three years, you have been my family too," I replied, shrugging off the appreciation. "How... how is she?"

Alex rubbed my shoulder. "She's doing alright son. She doesn't remember anything though," he said, his voice sad.

I led Lenore and Alex out of the hospital and to where my car was waiting. Alex helped his wife into the backseat and climbed into the front, leaning his head back against the seat. Lenore was wiping her tears in the backseat. I didn't know what to say to comfort them since I was dealing with my own pain with the situation.

We drove back to the house in silence and I carried in their bags, even though they told me I didn't need to. I brought them to the guest room and set them down next to the bed. I looked around at the room Y/N had decorated for when our parents visited. It was a pale blue color with white trim. The honey colored furniture gave the room a beachy feel. The dark blue comforter was piled high with pillows and the window seat had a view of the fenced in backyard. We had purchased the house with a backyard to prepare for future children. The thought of those plans had my heart thudding in my chest. I didn't know what to do anymore.

Lenore and Alex came into the room. "Y/N did a beautiful job on the room," she said, looking around. Everywhere you looked in the house, from the rooms to the kitchen to the bathroom, were little touches of Y/N. Things that only she would pick out. Things that someone else might pass by but she would see the beauty in it.

"Yeah," I replied. "She sure did."

Lenore hugged me again. "Don't give up yet honey. It's going to be okay," she said softly.

I nodded my head, my expression blank. "I...I'll leave you to rest. If you need anything, I'll be downstairs," I said, before softly closing the door behind me.

Although I knew they were trying to be helpful, I was so tired of hearing the words 'it's going to be okay.' They sounded so empty and so fake. Words you spout off when you have nothing else to say. How was anything going to be okay? My best friend, the love of my life, my fiancé didn't remember me. Everything we had planned, all the dreams we had were gone. Everything had disappeared in a single instant. I didn't see how anything was ever going to be okay again.

Lenore and Alex came down the stairs a couple hours later, looking refreshed. I was standing in the kitchen, staring off into space and stirring a pot of beef, potatoes, and vegetables. It was comfort food I used to make Y/N when she was sick. Right now, though, it was me that was in need of a little bit of comfort.

I ladled the food into bowls and put some fresh bread on the table. We sat and ate in silence, no one sure exactly what to say.

Alex finally spoke up. "What are the plans when Y/N is released from the hospital?" he asked.

"I... I hadn't really thought about it. I honestly don't believe she would be comfortable coming here," I said, moving the food around my bowl, only having taken a few bites.

Lenore nodded. "I'm afraid you're probably right. At least for a short while. We'll put her up in an apartment close to the company. She mentioned today that Jimin said her position was still available for her," she said quietly.

I nodded. "I'm sure. Jiminie would never give her up," I said. "I... I don't think I can stay here honestly. I'll probably see about staying with friends for now until I put the house on the market."

Lenore and Alex both looked at me in surprise. "Why would you sell the house?" Alex asked me.

"We... we bought the house for us. For our future family. I couldn't imagine living here alone," I said softly, the tears gathering in my eyes.

Lenore got out of her seat and came to me, pulling me from mine and gathering me in her arms, hugging me tightly. "Don't give up honey. Please don't give up on her," she pleaded. "She loves you. I know she does. She just needs to remember who you are."

I didn't say anything since I didn't know what to say. I just stood there in her embrace, my tears soaking the shoulder of her shirt. I finally pulled back from Lenore, embarrassed at the way I had broken down. She picked up a napkin from the table and wiped the tears from my face, her soft gestures reminding me of Y/N. I gave her a sad smile then picked up my bowl from the table, carrying it to the kitchen.

Alex came in behind me, the rest of the dishes in his hands. He set the dishes on the counter and came to stand next to me at the stove, where I was putting the leftover stew into a plastic container. "Lenore's right son. My girl loves you and she needs you," he said, placing a hand on my shoulder.

"I... I just don't know right now," I said, my voice soft. "What if she never remembers me?"

Alex turned me around, facing him. "Don't say that. You have to have faith. Have faith in your relationship. In your love. In the life you shared together. Hang onto that," he said, giving me a quick hug.

Lenore came into the room. "Tae honey, we're going to head back to the hospital. Why don't you come with us?" she asked, her voice gentle.

As much as I wanted to see Y/N, I just couldn't do it. "Umm... you go ahead and go. The keys to Y/N's car are hanging on the hook. I'm going to stay here and get some work done. Jiminie's letting me work from home for now and I kind of slacked off today," I said, my excuses sounding weak even to my ears.

Lenore gave me a sad smile, knowing exactly what I was doing. "Okay honey," she said, patting my arm. "We'll be back in a little while. Do you want us to bring you anything?"

I shook my head. "No it's okay. I appreciate it though," I replied.

After Lenore and Alex left the house, I sat on the sofa, finally succumbing to the pain I was feeling. Yeontan jumped up on my lap, licking the tears on my cheeks. I felt more alone now than ever before.