Finally Free - Charlie Gillespie

Chapter Twenty-One

🚨SMALL TRIGGER WARNING🚨

Kenedi
"So?" Sofia sighs laying her head in my lap. "Did you talk to him?" Her eyes fill with tears making my heart hurt for her.

I wish I hadn't told her to tell Owen how she feels. I hate that I'm the reason why she's upset. I failed as a best friend.

She nods and I gently start playing with her hair. She loves it when someone plays with her hair.

She silently nods just staring at the ceiling. I sigh shakily and lay down holding her tightly.

"I'm here to listen if you wanna talk about it." She sobs quietly hiding her face in my chest. I hold her even tighter if possible holding back tears.

How am I supposed to watch my best friend's heart break?

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Owen
"Charlie, I really fucked up man. What do I do?" I pace back and forth in front of him while chewing on my nail.

"What exactly happened?" I sigh standing in front of him nervously.

"She asked me how I feel about her and I said I don't know and she told me she likes me and I said cool."

"Dude...please tell me you're kidding." I shake my head really wishing I was kidding. "What the fuck, Owen?"

"I don't know! I was in too much shock to really say anything!"

"What happened next?"

"Some fans came over and one said she never had her first kiss and she wanted it to be special. She asked me to be her first kiss and she asked Sofia to take a picture of us."

"OWEN! Oh my fucking god! She literally just told you she likes you and you kiss another girl in front of her?!"

I start pacing again in tears.

I need Sofia here with me now. My heart is beating too fast like before I have an anxiety attack. She's the only person that can actually calm me down.

Oh fuck.

I do like her. I like her a lot. I just wish it hadn't taken all of this happening for me to realize it because I'm such a dumbass.

"What happened after you kissed the fan?" I take deep shaky breaths trying to keep myself somewhat calm.

"Sofia asked to come back here because she was tired."

"Dude...you broke her heart."

"DON'T YOU THINK I REALIZE THAT, CHARLIE?! DON'T YOU THINK I REALIZED JUST HOW BADLY I FUCKED UP?" He flinches slightly when I start yelling, but I'm too pissed at myself to even care.

"I'm sorry." He says quietly and I slide down the wall in tears.

"How do I manage to constantly fuck up the best things in my life?"

"What do you mean?" He sits down next to me as the tears start falling. I've never hated myself this much before.

"My parents are divorced because of me. My mom almost went bankrupt trying to support my dreams. I ruined everything with Sofia because I'm fucking stupid. All of the fans hate me."

"None of the fans hate you." I look up at him not able to stop the tears. I've never been this emotional in front of him before, but I don't care because I haven't felt this low since my parents told me about the divorce.

"Then why are there literal Owen Joyner hate accounts telling me to kill myself?"

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Sofia
I sniffle quietly just laying down on the couch with Kenedi. I still feel heartbroken and hate myself even more with each passing minute, but she's making me feel better.

She chose to spend time with me instead of Charlie. I've never had a friend choose me over their boyfriend before and it feels nice.

At least I matter to Kenedi even if I don't matter to Owen.

Watching him kiss that fan made me realize that this isn't a fairytale. I won't get my happily ever after with my knight in shinning armor like Kenedi does, but she deserves to be happy after everything she's been through.

She doesn't know it, but she's the reason why I'm still alive. I really don't want to leave her in two days because I have to go back home.

"I really don't know what to say to make you feel better, but I am here for you, Sofia. I know we're still getting to know each other, but I love you." I smile lightly looking up to her.

"Thank you, Kenz. I love you too." She kisses my head making me feel not as empty. "I don't want to leave you."

"I don't want you to leave either, Sof."

"I'm so much happier here with you than with my family."

"I understand. I've never been this happy before. Moving out of my mom's was the best decision I ever made." I hesitate then look up to her. "What?"

"Do you think I should move out too?"

"I can't tell you what to do, Sof. All I can tell you is that I want what's best for you and if you think that's moving out, I will support you 100% no matter what."

"Really?"

"All I want is for you to be genuinely happy. I know your family isn't supportive and there's a lot of issues there, but you deserve to feel supported. If there's one thing I need you to know it's that I will always support you."

"God what did I ever do to have you in my life?" She laughs lightly gently wiping away my tears.

"I ask myself that question every day. I have so many people in my life now that I would lay down my life for."

I would do the same for her.

"I don't know where I'd move to though. It's not like I can afford an apartment."

"Move to Canada with me and Charlie then move to Cali with us when we're done filming."

"Kenedi, I can't afford that."

"No, but I will be."

"Wait you're being serious?"

"You don't want to leave. I don't want you to leave. You're my best friend. How cool would it be to be able to say I live with my best friend?" I laugh lightly shaking my head.

"It's not asking too much is it?"

"Honestly, the only way I'd be offended is if you say no." I hug her tightly in tears again.

"I love you so fucking much." She giggles.

"I love you more, Sof."

"That's not even possible."

"Oh, but it is child of mine." I laugh shaking my head.

"Whatever, mom."

It still hurts, but I don't need Owen to be happy. I have my best friend. That's all that matters.

***

Owen
I locked myself in the bathroom after telling Charlie about the accounts just so I could look at their new posts.

I really am a shitty person.