Finally Free - Charlie Gillespie

Chapter Forty-six

Kenedi
I hang up the phone about to scream. I knew planning a wedding this soon would be hard, but come on people. Just give me a fucking venue okay?

Sofia and Heer don't say anything. They've learned to just let me have my moment.

"That was the sixth place that said no. Sixth. I can't even find a fucking venue for this stupid fucking wedding! Mine as well just cancel the whole thing."

"Kenedi..." Heer say softly making me glare at her.

"What?" My heart jumps to my throat hearing his hurt voice.

"I'll let my family know the wedding is canceled so they don't come early to help." He backs out of the room shaking his head.

"Charlie wait!" I try to run after him in tears, but Heer grabs my arm stopping me. "Let me go!"

"Yes. Yes. April fifth. How much? Oh my god thank you so much!" She hangs up then looks at me excitedly.

"This better be good or you will regret it."

"I found a venue!" I sigh shakily rubbing my temples.

"Where?"

"Long Beach." I smile lightly thinking about it.

"I'm getting married on the beach?"

"Not if you don't go talk to Charlie!" Sofia pushes me out of the room. I sigh shakily hesitantly walking to the kitchen.

"I don't know, mom. She just doesn't seem happy with me." I frown listening in even though I know I shouldn't. "Maybe the wedding was her breaking point." I wish I could hear what she's saying. "No, mom. I love her more than anything. I do. I just feel like I can't make her happy."

I sigh frowning and walk up behind him. I wrap my arms around his waist and lay my head on his shoulder kissing it softly. I feel him tense but relax when I kiss him.

"I'll call you later, mom." He hangs up, but doesn't say anything to me.

"I'm sorry I made you feel this way, baby. I really didn't mean to. There's just a lot going on and it's stressing me out." He stays quiet for a minute then says softly.

"That's when you talk to me."

"I know, baby. I know."

"How am I supposed to help you if you don't let me in?" I close my eyes in tears holding onto him tighter.

"I'm late." He turns around quickly with wide eyes.

"What?" I can't help the tears that fall.

"I'm late."

"A-and...that's a bad thing?" I can tell he's trying to contain his excitement for my sake. If it wasn't for my doctor, I'd be excited too.

"My doctor said..." I can't even finish the sentence because I know if I do, I'll break down. His face falls probably knowing where this is going.

"You...you can't get pregnant?" I bite the inside of my lip bracing myself for what may or may not happen. He sighs pulling me into him.

"If I do get pregnant, I will miscarry or I will die. My body can't support me and a baby." I feel his tears hitting my neck really making me hate myself right now.

"How long have you known?"

"Just a few weeks."

"Who else knows?"

"Owen. He only knows because I broke down over it in front of him. I'm sorry I didn't tell you, but-"

"It would make it feel more real." I nod sniffling. "Does your doctor know why?" I hesitate not sure if I should tell him. He deserves to know.

"My eating disorder really harmed my body more than we originally thought." He sighs shakily tightening his grip on me. "I'm so sorry, Charlie." I hesitantly look up to him.

"We can still have a family, sunshine. We can have a surrogate or we can adopt."

"I know, but...I'll never get the chance to watch our baby grow." I sniffle quietly struggling to hold myself together. "I'll never get to breastfeed. I'll never get to sing to him or her so they'll calm down. I'll never-"

"Baby, stop." He holds my jaw forcing me to look into his eyes. "We will figure all of this out. Maybe if we have a surrogate, we can have one of our friends do it so you can be with the baby as often as possible." I hesitantly nod.

"I'm sorry."

"Don't be. You're healthy. That's all that I care about right now." I nod shakily wiping away my tears. "But if you don't want to get married-"

"No! No! I want to get married." He sighs in relief smiling lightly.

"You do?" I nod smiling lightly.

"I'm sorry for exploding earlier. I didn't mean it. I'm just stressed over-"

"Being late, everything your doctor said, planning a wedding. I know."

"Heer found a venue so I'm feeling better now."

"Yeah? Where?"

"Long Beach." He smiles widely and picks me up spinning me around. "Charlie!" I giggle holding onto him so he won't drop me. He sets me back down on my feet and kisses me.

"It's one of my dreams to get married on Long Beach." I smile lightly up to him in awe.

"Baby, if you have any dreams about our wedding, I need you to tell me. I want us to have our dream wedding."

"Well...I kinda always wanted to make my own wedding cake." I smile even wider if possible.

"It's funny you say that because Abbey suggested that we should bake it ourselves." He laughs shaking his head.

"Who's going to be your maid of honor?" I sigh frowning.

"I have no clue. I can't decide between Sofia and Heer. One of them would end up hurt."

"Why don't you just have two maid of honors then?"

"You'd be okay with that?"

"Of course I would. I've been thinking about asking both Owen and Jer to be my best men."

"I was thinking we could have Madi walk Shadow down as the flower girl and Care and Jer could walk Finn and Jake down as the ring bearers."

"I love that."

"And I already asked your mom to walk me down the aisle. I hope you're okay with that."

"I'm beyond okay with that, sunshine. She's your mom too okay?" I nod smiling lightly. "We're going to be okay. I promise. We'll figure everything out and it'll be okay."