Finally Free - Charlie Gillespie

Chapter Thirty-seven

Kenedi
I get home from Sofia's giggling to myself. I can't remember the last time I drank that much. I told myself I wasn't going to drink, but when I saw Owen, it was like I couldn't stop.

He ignored me the whole time I was there which hurt like hell.

The one time he acknowledged me was when he asked Sofia what I was doing there. He didn't even say hi to me.

I walk into the living room and sit down in Charlie's lap not caring that he's in the middle of a game.

"Hi sunshine." I don't say anything just hiding my face in his neck. I can't stop thinking about Owen. He hates me and it makes me sad.

I watch Charlie play the game for a while and don't even realize that I'm crying until Charlie pauses his game.

"Hey." He gently wipes away my tears. "Sunshine, what's wrong?" I quietly sob shaking my head. "Talk to me."

"Owen hates me."

"What? No he doesn't."

"He does."

"He might be upset with you, but he could never hate you."

"I just wish I was good enough for you."

"You are good enough for me." He grabs my jaw forcing me to look at him. I slowly look down at his lips then back to him. Fuck I want to kiss him so bad. "You're more than good enough for me." 

"Promise?" He looks down at my lips then back to my eyes.

"Don't push me away again." Before I can even respond, he kisses me softly. I moan quietly into his mouth quickly kissing back. After going a week and a half without kissing him, I can't help myself.

He slowly lays me down on the couch not breaking the kiss. We should stop. But I don't want to.

He slowly starts kissing down my neck making me pant. I don't know what's happening, but I should stop it.

"Charlie." My voice comes out barely a whisper and I doubt he even heard it. He bites down on my neck making me moan and tug on his hair. He moans against my neck making me whimper.

He holds my hands above my head kissing me again. My head is drowning in thoughts as he bites my lip. I don't even know how we ended up here.

"Fuck I need you." He groans into my mouth. My eyes shoot open as soon as the words leave his mouth. He starts struggling to unbutton my jeans and I quickly push his hands away.

He holds my hands above my head making my heart race even more. He finally manages to pop my jeans open and I find a way to finally speak.

"Charlie, stop." I whimper pressing my body against his really not wanting it to stop.

"No just let me do this." He kisses me again trying to pull my jeans down.

"Charlie. Stop." He looks into my eyes and realizes I'm being serious.

"What do you want from me, Kenedi?" He blinks back his tears and I close my eyes not wanting to see the pain in them. "Why don't you want me?" His voice cracks making me tear up.

"I do want you. I want you so bad."

"Then why won't you just fuck me?"

"Because I don't want to just fuck you!" He scoffs sitting back up shaking his head. "That came out wrong."

"First, you broke up with me. Now you don't even want to have sex with me." No no no. This all going so wrong. "Seriously what did I do?"

"Charlie-"

"Don't Charlie me. Tell me what the hell I did to deserve this." I watch him in tears just hoping he'll let me talk. "Did I do something to make you hate me?"

"I don't hate you." My voice cracks. He slowly looks up to me, a couple tears falling.

"Then why don't you love me?" I hesitate slowly straddling his lap. I hold his face gently pressing my forehead against his.

"I do love you."

"Then why did you break up with me? Why did you just turn me down? Why-" I softly kiss him just so he'll stop asking questions.

I slowly pull back smiling lightly.

"Can I talk now?" He hesitantly nods looking into my eyes. "I broke up with you because...because all of those accounts that were comparing me to Sofia and they were saying I don't deserve you and my mom said that you deserve someone more like you."

"But they're all wrong. They don't know you like I do." I smile lightly gently brushing my thumb across his lip.

"I know." I gently run my fingers through his hair kissing his nose softly. "Leaving you was my biggest mistake."

"Then don't leave me."

"What?"

"Take me back. Just say the word and I'm all yours." I hesitate trying to process that he really wants me back. "Please don't leave me again."

"You really do love me." I knew he did, but hearing him like this just makes me realize he actually does. And it feels good.

"I love you so much it hurts, Kenedi. But please. I can't live without you." I laugh lightly unable to stop my tears.

"I love you, Charlie. And that's why I made you stop."

"What?"

"I want your first time to be with someone special."

"But you are special. You're special to me."

"I know, baby, I know. But your first time should be special. Not just in the heat of the moment on the couch when we aren't even technically back together."

"We aren't together?" He frowns deeply making me smile.

"Well now we are." His face instantly brightens making me giggle.

"We are?" I nod wrapping my arms around his neck.

"We are. And if I ever do something dumb like this again, please tell Sofia to slap some sense into me." He laughs kissing me softly.

I giggle against his lips finally feeling whole again.

"I love you, Kenedi."

"I love you more, Charlie. And when the time is right, it will happened okay? But we won't fuck." He smiles lightly understanding what I mean.

"We'll make love." I giggle shaking my head.

"And I won't still be drunk." He shakes his head laughing.

"C'mon you dork. I'll make you some hot cocoa to help with the hangover you're bound to have."

"Or you could just keep kissing me so I could be drunk on you instead of all the wine I drank." He shakes his head laughing and kisses me again.

My mom really is a master manipulator.