Finally Free - Charlie Gillespie

Chapter Sixty-eight

Kenedi
"Okay now this is the last song."

"There's more?" I look over at Sofia letting out a shaky breath. "My heart isn't ready for this." Madi leans over and whispers into my ear.

"Maybe you should sing to him at the reception." I gasp looking at her. That's an amazing idea.

"YES!" She giggles nodding.

"Yes what?" I look at him blushing deeply.

"Nothing. Don't worry about it. Sing!!" He laughs running his fingers through his hair.

"When you hear this song, I think you'll understand why it makes me think of you." I nod biting my lip. He clears his throat nervously then begins strumming the chords.

I wanna be where you are.
Don't wanna be miles apart.
I wanna feel your lips upon mine
and feel how our bodies intertwine.
Cause you are mine tonight.

I cover my mouth listening to the lyrics in tears. The person that wrote this song wrote it about their fiancé. They felt as if time was moving faster unless they were with their fiancé. Time slowed down. But at the same time, they didn't want to wait to be with them for the rest of their lives. I understand how they feel.

Time gets moving so fast
And I can feel it slipping away.
Let's not wait any longer
Cause I can't bare another day
Living like we're gone tomorrow
Cause nothing's guaranteed.
Don't wanna be an hourglass.
Let's just make this moment last.

I wish I could just take a picture of us right now and frame it so we could stay in this moment forever, but I can't. I just want to be with him. Is that really too much to ask for?

I wish we could just freeze time.
Live in this moment for a while
Your arms wrapped around me.
Your heart beats synced with mine.
And you. Are mine, tonight.

I haven't told him this yet, but I will always be his. Even if we don't make it in the end, I will still be his. He has my heart locked away and I'll never get it back, but I'm somehow okay with that.

I trust him.

Time gets moving so fast.
But everything stops with you.
Let's not wait any longer
Cause I can't bare another day
Living like we're gone tomorrow
Cause nothing's guaranteed.
Don't wanna be an hourglass.
Let's just make this moment last.

I can't even begin to explain just how tempted I am to drive out to the woods where he is now. I want him. I need him. I don't want to be without him.

The clock is ticking.
The sand is running out.
No time for wishing.
Just gotta live for now.

I hold the pillow up to my mouth sobbing into it. I tried not to break down, but this song and him singing it are my breaking points.

Let's not wait any longer
Cause I can't bare another day
Living like we're gone tomorrow
Cause nothing's guaranteed.
Don't wanna be an hourglass.
Let's just make this moment last.

After he finishes he just watches me waiting for a reaction. I lift the pillow slightly trying to talk, but only sobs come out. The girls immediately hug me causing me to sob harder.

"I-I didn't mean to upset you." I shake my head no hiding my face in the pillow. Sofia holds her phone up to my ear and as soon as I hear Owen's voice, I feel like I can breathe again.

"It's okay, Kenedi. You're okay. Charlie's okay. Everyone is safe. Just breathe." I slowly follow his breathing instructions.

I didn't even realize I started having an anxiety attack until it was happening, but I'm thankful Owen was smart enough to call Sofia.

"I'm okay." My voice cracks. I'm still breathing hard and crying, but I'm not a mess anymore.

"Are you sure?" I nod then realize he can't see me.

"Yeah I'm fine."

"Do you want to talk to Charlie?"

"Can I?"

"Of course. Hold on." I hear Owen talking to Charlie, but before he can even finish the sentence, he already grabbed the phone and starts talking to me.

"Baby, I am so so sorry. I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to upset you or stress you out or whatever the fuck happened. I'm so sorry."

"Baby, listen me to." I giggle quietly wiping my tears. "I'm okay. I honestly don't know why I had an anxiety attack, but I'm okay."

"What even happened?"

"I don't really know. I was listening to you and thinking about getting married and maybe even not waiting the whole two weeks because I just want to be with you and then I started thinking about all the good that's happened to me because of you."

"Oh...so you were just overwhelmed with how happy and loved you feel."

"Would that cause an anxiety attack?"

"Of course it can. Basically everything can, baby. You can ask Madi, I had an anxiety attack while practicing in front of her."

"What? Why?"

"I was nervous that you wouldn't like it or something else bad would happen."

"Baby, I loved it and I love you. I selfishly am going to make you sing Hourglass all the time to me now. I know the baby enjoyed it too." I can hear the smile in his voice.

"How is beanie?" I roll my eyes giggling.

"Little bean misses you almost as much as I miss you."

"I'll be home tomorrow, princess."

"I know. And when you get home, I have a surprise for you."

"Oh?" I smirk seeing all the girls walk to the kitchen with my phone.

"We went shopping at the mall today."

"Oh fashion show! I'm so down for that."

"Well...not the kind of fashion show you're thinking of."

"Wait. You don't want to wait two weeks to get married?" I cringe because I thought he might have just not heard that part. "What does that mean?"

"I just...I want to marry you now. I don't want to wait any longer."

A few beats of silence pass until he speaks up again. The few words he says, makes my heart race.

"Then let's get married tonight."