Your Highness

XXI. CLAIM

I've heard rumors about him. Things such as how his opponents feared him because he has that air.

Someone you don't wanna mess with.

Titancio Janssen is no doubt intimidating. With his tall height, manly features that includes his aristocratic nose, hard-like pouty lips (because it was  really soft like jelly,) tanned skin, thick black hair that fully compliments the proportion of his face,  and his stoic posture...medyo unapproachable talaga siya sa unang tinginan.

Though his mouthwatery. Kahit sa ganyang department makabawi man lang siya di ba?

But honestly, Titan's a crybaby.  My soft boi.

Hinuhuli ko ang tingin ni Titan pero todo iwas siya kanina pa. After crying for God knows how long, iiwasan niya ako ngayon?

"Are you embarassed?"

Humarap siya pero lumagpas naman ang tingin sa'kin at tumitig sa mga sunflower na nasa likod ko. The flowers are not as bright since it's night but it's still beautiful and the city lights? Just made the night more perfect.

Kanina, we exchange seats and I drove him here. I lived here in a short span of time  and this place is one of my favorites. Eden Solace is my safe haven back then. Years passed, I expected indifference but I'm surprised nothing change.

"What if I am?"

I studied his expression. I am trying to be playful to cover my real feelings but he always find a way to shut me up.

Maybe I can finally ask him and end this all at once? I've been suppressing myself because I don't wanna ruin someone's relationship. Not that my confession would change anything.

If there's one thing I'm good at, it's respecting relationships. If I truly like someone, I'd willingly give it a try but if he's committed that's when I draw the line.

Itinaga ko na sa bato noon pa na hinding-hindi ako gagaya sa nanay ko. She left us for another family and took care of someone's child when she has her own.

I won't cheat. May it be physical or emotionaly. Isipin ko pa lang na may isang magagaya sa tatay ko bumibigat na loob ko. What my mother did, scarred me for life.

Noong bata pa ako, hindi ko talaga maintindihan. Pero kalaunan napagod na rin ako, tinanggap ko na lang at hindi na nag-abala pang intindihin ang ginawa niya. I realized that she doesn't deserve an ounce of my understanding.

I was thankful she gave birth to me but that's it. No hard feelings. Now, I honestly think I can handle having them around because Tatay's already happy. I'm just bitter the past years because I can see that they're happy while my tatay's alone. I even think I can greet them with a smile the next time we see each other, I'm that happy.

Finally, Titan's gaze bore into me. I'm not dumb. I noticed his advances but I chose to ignore all of it because my life's already complicated as it is.

However, I never regret entering this pretend relationship because I get to practice law and met this wonderful man right in front of me.

You don't blame the man you have feelings for, you blame yourself for being marupok.

"Do you like me?"

I asked him. I won't confess my feelings alright. I don't want to be a third party but if he has feelings for me? That's a different case. It's wrong in all aspects.