Chapter Song~
Save Me // Nicki Minaj
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I hear a pair of feet stomping up the steps behind me, so I slam the door absentmindedly.
"Ow." The voice doesn't belong to Cameron, so I pace to the door and open it. Jack stands there, holding his nose and looking down at it.
"I'm sorry." I murmur, rolling my eyes and walking back into the room where I last had my clothes.
"Leighton, where are you going?" He asks, arms out and confused.
"Home," I say, bending down and looking under the bed for my shirt. I stand back up and look around the room, feeling my head spin like I've just gotten off a roller coaster for the tenth time. I place my hand over my forehead and close my eyes, trying to control my breathing. My words spoken to Cameron start to flush back into my head, rushing like water breaking through a dam. Even though it's cooler inside, I notice sweat staining my palms. I attempt to blink away my blotchy vision, but all my efforts fail. My breathing is short and choppy and I can't seem to control it either. That's when I black out.
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I wake up to someone stroking my hair, lightly. A prickly sensation pokes at the back of my neck and the smell of burning candles penetrates my nostrils. My eyes flutter open and I see Cameron chewing off whatever nails he has left. My head lays oddly on his rough white cast. I try wiggling away, but a sharp pain rises in my right shoulder and my head feels like it's been struck by a metal bat. I'm too weak to move, so I'm stuck with him petting my head like everything's okay, or like actually cares about me.
He looks down at me, before looking back up nonchalantly. "Why are you doing this?" I speak with a raspy voice.
"You passed out."
"No." I shriek, voice cracking. "You know what I mean, Cameron." He looks down at me with solicitous eyes. "You can't just send me away then act like nothing ever happened." His hand still gently strokes my hair, so I swat it away. He rubs his eyes before leaning his cheek against his fist.
"I don't want to talk about this, Leighton." He mumbles, trying so hard for our eyes not to connect. And I know why, too.
"Cameron, look at me."
"No," his voice cracks as his lips slide downwards, tears becoming patent in his eyes. "I know if I do, I'm going to fall in love with you all over again. And I can't afford that, Leighton. I can't do that." He .. he never stopped loving me? That's when it all clears up, like the sky after a horrible storm. Cameron is a shit emotion expresser, and I'm too dumb to see it. You never know what you have until it's gone, and I was almost gone. I was so close to slipping away forever and being, to him, the one that got away. This is when I realize, the universe doesn't hate us after all. Because every time I think it doesn't want us to be content, or be together, it capsizes my thoughts, and my feelings, and changes my mind. And just when I thought I couldn't move on any more, it gave me a little nudge, because that's all I really needed in the first place.
I take his hand in mine and close my eyes, whispering to him, "Cam." Silence loiters over us. I open my eyes and find his on me.
"You're so beautiful." He whispers, stroking the side of my face with his thumb as a tear scrolls down his pinkish-red cheek. "And I love you so much, it hurts me. And I don't know what I'm supposed to feel, but I know I love you, and I can't stop. And nor will I ever stop." It's like one tear after another, and the clear salty liquid won't stop. Without thinking, and ignoring the pain in my shoulder, I launch up and crash my lips onto his in one quick motion. He moans in relief, grabbing my face, along with a few strands of hair, and kissing me harder. I taste bitter sweet tears as his tongue tips the brim of my mouth. Our lips move in synchronization and I don't think I've ever felt anything better. I love him. And it may be a painful love, but pain is beauty, and I'm willing to go through pain to have something beautiful with him.
I pull away with my eyes still shut. Our breaths cross paths as we heavily exchange one another, breaking the silence. I lick my lips and let my eyes flutter open, welcoming the sight of Cameron's perfectly round face lit by the dim lights around us. The tip of my index finger glides the brim of his jawline.
"Oh." A voice mumbles. I turn my head and see Carter standing in the entrance of the hallway leading to the backyard. "We're all going out to eat, want to come?"
I look at Cameron to see if he's in. He nods and grabs his crutches. After helping him up, I walk him to my car to get ready to leave. I'm following Jack and we end up driving to Applebee's.
Cameron slides his hand into mine and smiles. "No one has ever loved anybody the way I love you."
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A/N: Sorry guys I haven't uploaded. I didn't really know where to go with this chapter. Please vote & comment. Thanks for the reads(:
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