You Are the Reason [ ON-HOLD ]

Chapter 30

     Lorenzo's Pov

Pauwi nako ng mapansin ko si Camilla with the other girl I think she's working here too. I've saw that girl many times because they are always with each other but I don't know her name. Lumabas na sila at nakita ko naman na may isa ring gwapong lalaki. I immediately go outside. Huminto sina Camilla doon. Im wondering why? Do they know that guy?

It can't be. Hindi naman siguro si Camilla ang pinunta non dito.

Hindi ako papayag na may ibang lalaking umaligid sakanya. Dahil hindi ko alam kung anong pwedeng magawa ko. But when I saw the guy na kinuha ang bag nung other girl at hinawakan sa bewang iyon ay nakahinga ako ng maayos.

Then there. That girl saw me and greet me. So, I greet at her too. "Goodevening your boyfriend?" Then she said "Yes Sir Scott" so it's confirmed

I don't know why I'm acting like this. And I don't know why do I feel like I'm being possessive because I want to be the only man that wants to be around to Camilla and no one else.

"Goodevening" I said while smiling and looking at Camilla. " Goodevening din po Sir Scott" and here we go again saying those words but I can't say anything because we're in front of her friend.

Uuwi na daw sila kaya kami nalang ang naiwan ni Camilla. I'm so happy because I saw her again but someone interrupt it. It's Clark Martinez the second leader of the department that President Althea's holding on.

I really can't believe this man! Kanina pa siya ha! And what? she wants to drive home, Camilla. What the hell with this man.

Naiinis ako sakanya at sa tingin ko ay nakakahalata na siya simula pa kanina because of my actions and words. But at the end I just say that there's no problem and it looks like he was convinced of what I've said. "Take care Sir. Take care Camilla" he said.

At the end ay ako pa rin ang naghatid kay Camilla. Hindi ako papayag na ihatid siya ng Martinez na yon. I can't look straight at her because of what I've done.

I've done wrong! What did I do this time! Yun ang sinasabi ko sa utak ko.  I hold her hand tightly and it looks like she didn't like what I've done naging harsh ako sakanya kanina. Because of jelousy eto ang napala ko d*mn it!

I asked Camilla if Martinez like her but she said no. It looks like she's saying the truth and Martinez is just actually like that but I can't help but to feel jelous. But because of what I've done I chose to be silent I don't know what to tell her.

Is she mad at me? Why she's so silent. I look at Camilla but she's just looking at the window. I'm worried on what she's thinking now.

Because of the silence I turn on the music in my car para mabawasan sana ang katahimikan pero hindi maganda ang mga kanta so I just turn it off again.

She look at me but I avoid her because I can't look straight at her because of what happen. At itong katahimikan ay dumadagdag pa para hindi ko siya matingnan and I'm afraid na may magawa na naman ako sakanya na hindi niya magugustuhan.

But wait I'm Jaziel Lorenzo Scott I'm not afraid with anything but when it comes to her I'm afraid in everything.

"Ah, dito nalang." doon palang siya nagsalita nagtataka naman ako sakanya because of what she said. I remember na hindi pa dito ang house nila. Mukhang nabasa niya ang iniisip ko " Dito nalang baka gabihin kapa."

"It's okay." sagot ko sakanya pero tiningnan niya lang muna ko I just look at her and avoid her again. D*mn it! Bakit ganito siya kalapit ngayon. I can't look at her straight!

"Hindi. Ano kasi. Ah, si mama at papa kasi baka makita ka niya. Baka kase kung anong isipin niya." she look shy when she's telling those words and I find it cute. I understand what she's trying to say I did not answer her dahil mas pinakatitigan ko lang siya. She's looking at me too. My emotions starting to protest. And I really can't take this anymore.

I move closer to her when she saw me moving she move too. Kinuha ko ang isa niyang kamay habang nakatingin sakanya I can feel to her hand that she's nervous her hand was cold hinaplos haplos ko 'to at ng hindi ako makontento ay hinawakan ko ang pisngi niya na ikinaurong niya pa ulit. "Lo-lorenz" mahinang sabi niya sa pangalan ko but It feels so nice to me. I can feel that she don't know what to do in this situation.

" Do you know that your making me crazy, Camilla? " I said while looking to her face. Kahit na nakasalamin siya ay maganda pa rin siya para saken. I can see that her cheeks is getting red now I'm wondering if it is because of me.

"Lo-lorenz?" ulit niya pa sa pagtawag sakin I really want her to say my name. Ilan beses ko pa muna siyang pinakatingnan at Ilan beses din akong napalunok bago ko unti-unting ilapit sakanya ang mukha ko. When I felt her lips to mine , I start pressing my lips to her I saw her closing her eyes so I closed my eyes too. I kiss her deeply. At ayoko ng bitawan pa ang labi niya because it feels so soft. I want to kiss her more and more as long as I can. As long as we can.

I'm afraid na magalit siya saken because of what I did again. But I can't control my feelings anymore. I want her to know kung anong gusto ko, kung anong nararamdaman ko. Ang tagal ko tong hindi naranasan pero iba ang nararamdaman ko ngayon iba ang nararamdaman ko kay Camilla. At hindi ito kamukha ng naramdaman ko noon kay Trina.

Habol habol namin ang hininga namin ng bitawan ko ang mga labi niya. Nakapikit pa rin siya at napangiti ako kaya lumapit ako ulit sakanya para dampian nalang ng halik sana iyon but I did not control my emotion kaya ang dampi lang sana ay mas pinailalim ko pa. Gusto kong alisin ang salamin na nakaharang sa mukha niya pero hindi ko mabitawan ang mga pisngi at labi niya. Kaya hinayaan ko nalang iyon at mas diniin ko pa ang pagkakalapit ng mukha niya sa akin at ang pagkakahalik ko sakanya. I want to suck her tounge d*mn it!

Habol habol ulit namin ang hininga ng isat isa ng bitawan ko kaagad ang labi niya natatakot ako na mabilisan siya sa nangyayare at mabastos ko siya so I decided to stop it. Nang magmulat siya ay tumingin siya saken. Inayos ko nalang ang salamin niya and her hair to make sure na maayos siya I'm afraid that her family would think what happen to her when they saw her like this. "Sorry. And Goodnight Camilla." sabi ko sakanya na nagiwas na ng tingin "Ah, g-goodn-night" mahinang sabi niya tska nagmadaling lumabas ng kotse ko I saw her in my rear mirror walking. I watch her until she reach their house to make sure that she's safe.

Napahawak nalang ako ng mahigpit sa manibela ng kotse ko at napapikit dahil sa ginawa ko. I kissed her.