Way Back Home

01

Growing up, I've never experienced choosing my desired things. My type of clothes. The foods that I wanted to ate. And even the little things that yu would not even know that it matters. It has always been them. But after all, I felt happy and contented growing up as I don't have any choice.

'At least they paid for it.' that's what I always think everytime I could not get what I actually wanted.

Tiniis ko naman pero sadyang naubos lang rin ang pasensya at hindi na iyon kinaya pa.

So at the age of fifteen, I could not do it anymore so I ran away from home.

Life is indeed beautiful despite what's happening in my life. But it could be exquisite if ever I had a wonderful family. Imagine, having a loving and supportive family. It would be the nicest feeling. Sadly, mine wasn't.

I felt like I was in a game wherein the player controls me. It feels like I was already programed ever since I was born.  Too bad, I could not do anything about it because I was stuck inside the computer. Waiting for its new player to control.

Just like now, I am sitting in and listening to our Professor for our foreign language subject. The couple that I've been living in wants me to pursue this program. And of course, I had no choice. Wala naman nang magpapa-aral sa aking mga magulang at isa pa, wala rin akong pera panggastos ko kung sakaling gustuhin ko mang maging isang abogado.

It will cost too much money and I surely could not afford it.

I am studying at University for the Flight Attendants here in our province. Hindi gaano kalaki ang aming unibersidad kumpara sa ibang unibersidad na kaharap lang nito. But the review of this school for the FA's was good plus the tuition is cheaper than the other university not far from here.

Inayos ko muna ang kaunting gusot ng aking pencil skirt bago ako tuluyang lumabas sa aming ini-ukopahan naming silid para sa isang subject namin. Today is our last subject and I am planning to head home but I remember that the couples were out of town for their annual outings. It's kind of good for me, maybe I could start to find a decent part-time job so I could afford to go to a nice airline for next year's OJT. Since I am planning to find a big and nice airline after I'll graduate and move away.

"Hello, Bella!" a random guy greeted as he walks with me. I gave him an annoying look and walked faster so I could avoid him.

"Avabella Minoza lang malakas." I heard someone shouted and laughed from a group of students also. The people who seem to saw it laughed at him, low-key, but I didn't care. I still have a lot to care of.

And I still need to find Jeu.

And a job, for the sake of my wallet.

Nagpatuloy lang ako sa paglalakad mahabang pathway patungong guardhouse. Good thing that I found him talking to someone outside our university gate. He is like my sundo since we both took different courses and attended different universities. He took up Political Science as his pre-law course, pero ewan ko sa kanya na imbes na mag-aral siya ay palagi pa niya akong hinahatid-sundo ako kahit pa hindi naman sobrang layo ng tinitirhan ko dito. At saka dapat parehong kurso iyong kukunin namin kaso lang wala talaga akong pera at baka hindi ko kayanin ang tuition doon sa university nila.

Maybe I could only study law after I would be working on an airline to save up money.

"Ave, are we heading home now?" he asked when he saw me walking towards him.