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26

"Then stop accusing me of something I did not commit," I said those words knowing that he can't hear me now. Awake.

I cannot help but smile bitterly. I wonder where life takes us if we are still together. His words back then were promising. Not my fault at all if I believed them. Not my young heart falls for it.

Siya lang rin naman iyong hindi tumutupad ng usapan. Siya lang rin iyong hindi ginawa iyong pangako niya. Ginagawa lang niyang tanga iyong sarili niya.

Thank goodness, I don't believe promises that much. Not causing me to fall much deeper than I fell. My disappointments in life helped me. Who would have thought?

I was thankful for the things that broke me before. Funny but it was true.

Kung sino pa iyong hindi mo inakalang tutulong sa iyo ay siya pa iyong dumating... Nang hindi mo inaasahan.

Thinking about what I had been before making me laugh now. Because growing up, I thought I had on my lowest point. When I had no one even if they were just kilometers from me.

But now, I felt nothing but regrets.

Eto iyong madalas natin nararamdaman kapag wala na, kapag huli na.

Mapakla akong tumawa habang inaalis iyong kamay niyang nakahawak sa braso ko saka lang tumalikod.

I grab myself a cup of coffee instead of water so it would help to wake me up from my senses. Gumala-gala lang ako sa loob hanggang sa mapadpad ako sa kanilang maliit na balcony. It somehow answered my question, upon where am I right now. Crazy but I could see the window of my room straight from her. I was about to take another sip when I heard a voice behind me.

"Good morning, headache?"

My assuming self thought his last word was an endearment. I giggled at it. I stopped myself from smiling as I was making a move, to face him.

Umiling ako. "Wala naman,"

As my inner self as screaming how I a sounded pakipot.

"Hungry?"

Umiling akong muli bago ko pa siya binigyan ng isang ngiti. Tumango naman ito bago pa ko sinuklian ng isang matamis na ngiti.

I thought our conversation would end there but it does not. He stepped closer to me before pulling me into a hug.

"I am sorry for being a jerk, Bing," he whispered.

I became stunned. But what surprised me more is him, calling me on our endearment when we almost get into a relationship.

"Uhm."

"I missed you so much," he whispered again.

We are still in a hug when I suddenly saw Namiel peeking, with a satisfied smile on his lips.

"Namiel is looking on us," I whispered back as he stopped enveloping me into a hug.

Namiel looked shocked when we are already looking at him. He smiled awkwardly as he slowly covered himself using the curtains.

Tikom ang mga bibig kong binalingan si Rawl at naglakad para sundan ang kanyang kambal. Nang makita ko ito ay may ngiti nang naka-ukit sa kanyang mga labi na tila ba ay inaasar ako. I rolled my eyes at him and sat on the chair, still not far at him.

He was busy preparing for breakfast when his twin showed himself with a towel on his head. Nahuli ako nitong nakatingin sa kanya kaya ngumisi siya. I cleared my throat and looked at his twin instead and helped him.

I usually do not eat breakfast but they made me eat with them. Namiel words were manipulating.

"Ako na maghuhugas mamaya." Pag-aako ko sa mga hugasin.