You're Not Alone

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It's been six days since we've been back at HQ, here in Trost. We've all been assigned different tasks over the last couple days and I haven't seen Jean since breakfast the day after I spent the night with him.

It's not that I'm avoiding him or anything... but I mean I have seen him walking in the hallway and I may or may not have gone into the closest room and shut the door every time.

I'm just worried... and insecure. I started thinking about how many girls he's probably been with and how I'm just going to disappoint him. Plus there's the fact I don't want our relationship to be public knowledge, even though we're not even really together... Jean and I are just having fun, I think.

"Sophie," Levi walks up to me while I water Hange's plant samples. "They want you on patrol duty with the Garrison in town. I guess with the recent news of Titans being in Wall Rose, people are lashing out. Go get your uniform on and meet up with Charlie's Squad."

"Yes Captain!" I nod and set down the plant waterer.

"Be on guard," he states as I walk out the door. "A lot of people are attacking guards looking for answers. Just tell them they're safe and the Titans are no longer a threat in Wall Rose."

"Will do!" I skip off and head to my room to get my uniform on.

After tightening all my straps, I pull some of my hair back into a bun and leave the rest down. After slipping on my shoes, I head to the supply room to grab ODM gear.

I hear someone walk out of their room and I find my auburn haired friend. Sasha meets up with me and informs me she is also on patrol duty.

"Why do I feel more anxious about dealing with people than I do with Titans," I laugh and adjust the belt on my pants.

"I was thinking the same thing," she looks at me with a surprised face. "But I've been bored, so I'm happy to be doing something other than play cards and chess."

"Yeah," I open the door to the supply room and find Jean and Armin putting on their ODM gear. "Oh..."

"Hey Jean!" Sasha smirks at me. "You guys patrolling too?"

"Yeah," Armin tucks in his shirt. "Shouldn't be too hard to just walk around."

Jean looks up at me and smiles, waving his hand slightly. I give him a quick smile back and grab my gear, starting to hook it up to my harness.

"At least we're all together," Sasha states as she puts her own gear on. "I hate talking to Garrison because they think they're so much better than us. Obviously not as bad as those pretentious Military Police folks."

"Speaking of the Garrison," I prop my foot up on a chair and loosen the strap on my inner thigh. "I saw Reece a couple night ago. He's still annoying and full of himself."

"You saw Reece?" Jean questions.

"Mhmm," I nod and avoid Jean's eye contact.

What is wrong with me? How can I make out with him and sleep in the same bed, but I can't hold a conversation with him while meeting his gaze?

My palms get all sweaty when he's around, I feel my heart speed up, and I can't seem to speak right. All my words get jumbled and I stutter.

I flatten my jacket against my body and head to the door. Jean cuts me off and leans against the doorframe.

"You say you saw him a couple nights ago," he looks to the side. "But how long is a couple? Like two or was it that night you came to my room."

"Uh... that night..." I rub the side of my neck.