The Augury

Part 64

[Cebo]
There are so many reasons victims will leave and come back to their abusive household, one may be looking for closure and freedom to be yourself after your past.

While with most leaving takes planning and takes a support system. For me, it took one single thought to protect my baby from being killed in some dark room and used for rituals and also for me to escape this life of being molested and to carry seeds that I will not get to hold.

I came back here to look for answers, there are a lot of grey areas about what I went through, and I want to know
' Why...and...Why me?"

My father worn but doing one thing to me, he made me feel lost, scared, and alone, and like there is a massive hole in my life, he made me feel like I deserve everything that he did to me.
Running away was the only escape I had to understand that my life is my own to live,
While the consequences of my abuse may impact my ability to act on things that I might have enjoyed as a teenager, now it's time to take back my life, it's going to be hard because honestly there is no time limit on healing.

If I could describe the impact and aftermath of emotional abuse in one word, it would be invisible. However Physical assault will leave you with stretch marks and other few scars, but the depth of every scars the weight of the pain creates a burden that people can't see or don't want to.

So here I am in my home town, the last place I thought I will ever be, my body a here but my mind wish I never returned at all but ngizothini,
It's a once and done situation, and there is no turning back.

" hay are you ok?"
He said hugging me from behind, I rested my head on his chest, and held his arms, he kissed my head and squeeze me tight.
" Usher asked to see you I think she picked up something..."
Me: now babe it's almost midnight "
Him: I know...at least you will be indoors on the other hand
Jisha wants to hear something...so I'm taking her for a walk"
I looked at him and frowned
Me: she wants to hear something ?"
Him: Don't look at me like that...I don't know also what she means by that, I'm only here to support you, and I'm just in the middle of these supernatural things you all going through"
Me: you know very well Sfiso that this is not your place...why did you insist on coming? "

Him: because I love you and I was not going to allow you to visit your past alone"
He looked at me and kissed my lips,
Him: let me call Omnia ..."
" I will tell Mbali we have arrived "
He took out his phone and stepped out I walked down the hall to Usher room,

Mbali decided to book us a guest house which was a good idea because we needed space from every one
" good you here sit dow "
I look her sitting down on the floor with her legs crossed, she offered me her hands to hold

Her: this will be the hardest thing I have to do especially since you the highest priestess and I'm way below your league but I'm about to show you or rather envoke your spiritual gift within you, "
Me: what?"
Her: You've got to know what your gifts are before you can use them. It's high time you Stop neglecting the fact that inside of you there are some dormant gifts that you're not even using, and you need to figure out what your descended has put in you. So now I want you to Give yourselves completely to your inner being for you were dead, but now you have a new life. So use your whole body as an instrument to do what is right for the glory of all our people "

Me: it's after midnight Usher can we do this in the morning ?"
Her: It already morning, come"
She opened her hands for me to hold, I sat down opposite her, the minute our hands came to contact our pendant started glowing

Her: focus on the pended fill it, become whole with it, yes just like that Cebo, remember your Gifts are like muscles The more you use them, the bigger they get. You can strengthen and develop and grow what your creator has given you. Any gift that has been given you can and should be developed, use it the way you want to use it ...."