The Augury

Part 31

[Ma-Makhaye ]

The past few days I haven't eaten no bath or had anything to drink,  my throat is dry from all the screaming and crying my body wounded, my vitals are slowly shutting down, I wish this nightmare of a life happened while I was asleep but Even minor ailments or movement caused by the demonic spirits I call my husband I hear it, I feel it, how he will disturb the wind energy, the air will change to cold that I start shivering. The energy gets dense, and then my mind gets sunk into a pattern of his behavior.

The grueling sound and how he pulls me by my leg under the bed, my already bleeding leg that sunk on his claws that feels like a bear trap,
" Please... let me go"
He looks more and more scarier by day he swings my weak body across the room causing my back to land on the  small table that has my paraffin stove, what was once mielie meal soft  porridge soak my body with its sour rotting smell

While trying to recover and open my eyes I felt his strong force holding me down, his hands on my throat, I'm gagging for air, I'm hitting the beast but he is enjoying every ounce of my misery while I pray that God does not take me now I still need to apologize to my daughter, what felt like I'm taking my last dying breath he finally let me go.

I cry for all my wrong that is catching up on me There are so much meaning and value I want to foster in my present life, and yet my tragic past continues to drag me down to hell with it,  I feel like I have weights tied to my ankles and there no way up but down sinking to the darkness

It’s the heaviness of grief that still sneaks up on me.  Truly, I’ve been through a lot the toughest and most heartbreaking of which was losing my daughter, And right now, 15 years later, I’m at a point where I’m trying to make the best out of a bad situation,

Not so long ago I wake up on some mornings and just can’t seem to let go of the way things were “supposed to be” in my life but adamant to fix them, and now I'm in hell tormented by a demon its so true that no bad deed goes in punished  

I try to sit up. I tried to scream for help but I could not get any noise to come out. I tried to hit the wall with my arm and this force would not let me. It's on top of me again scratching me with its neils
" ooh God please help me"
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[Mbali]
After speaking to Cebo on the phone I heard a women voice cry she is not alone she is with some sort of a spirit, half human half demon but, dwelling in two worlds, I close my eyes to see the vision the room is dark, it smells bad like something is rotting

"Please...stoo...please oh God..." the beast continues to strangle her, looking at the creature I feel a bit dizzy I place my elbows on my desk and hold my head

" baby...Mbali..." I heard Jabu's voice faintly
" Mbali can we talk please "
I try to block Jabu from my head, I shift my focus to my vision I look at the women trying to connect with her but the beast turns and looks at me his eyes makes me blink, his groans makes my heart skip ...

I shoot my eyes open, I did not even know that I was holding my breath as I start gasping for air,  trying to catch my breath.

When I look up I was meet by Jabu concern look
Her: hey are you ok?"
I nod and open the bottle of water that was on my desk and gulp it down, I breathe out loud as my eyes land on Jabu, she is standing by the door she smiles biting the side of her lip

I look at her and try to concentrate back on my vision but it comes in fleshes now not in a clear picture, Fuck!
" Mbali I'm sorry I hate it when we fight "
Me: not now Jabu"

She Walkes in, my eyes move to her legs she is wearing a bum short and a vest, her smooth leg makes me swallow damn it!  I'm already distracted
Me: fuck!!!I said not now damn it" I banged the desk as I stood up