The Augury

Part 73

[ Alex]

I did not sleep the whole night after I heard about how I was conceived now I know for fact why my biological mother does not want me.

I chewed my lip and made my way to the dining room but had voices coming from the kitchen, it's wrong to ears drop on another people conversation but the minute I heard my name and Cebo I stopped and listen,

Mvelo is the most informed out of everyone I have spoken to, if he knew about this why did he keep quiet for so long?
my ears shoot open when Austin asked the most important question that got my heart rate moving fast
Austin: if Silas used the blood of Cebo children, killed them, and sacrifice them to fulfill his purpose where  does that leave Alex?"
The room became dead silent, I walked in and found Austin looking at Mvelo who was chewing on his lip and not sure of the answer he must convey,
"please answer him what does that make me or leave me ?"

The startled look on their face was priceless, I took my seat and started dishing up
" Morning," I said when I realized that there are not going to answer me 
Nkosi: it's afternoon boy... But it does not matter how did you sleep? "
He said walking in, with his tab and car keys in his hand, I wish my life was as free-spirited as Nkosi, this guy spend 99% of his time  smiling and laughing, he has his own business and he  appears to have an exciting and adventurous life like he never  faces much adversity at all   
Me: I didn't "I snot looking down
Nkosi: well what I know and came to understand is that Life belongs to those who think little of yesterday and more of tomorrow "
I looked up and smiled nodding,
him: "I will be in the restaurant the whole day if you want to escape your reality come visit me " I nodded, He ran his hand on Austin's shoulder, and bid us goodbye,

" how much did you hear ?" Mvelo asked I guess this referring to what . I've heard when he was having a deep conversation with Austin
Me: everything ..."
Austin: do you want to talk about it?"
I lifted my head and looked at Mvelo
Me: yes...but I need it to be with him" I said pointing at Mvelo with my eyes,
Austin looked at me and back and Mvelo
Him: let's take a walk then "
He stood up wiped his hand,  he started walking and I had to follow behind him

Me: is it true"
Him: I'm paid to lie for a living so I don't go around telling lies just to  spere another person feeling because that something I don't want to be done to me "
Me: I understand .... again I'm sorry for hurting your wife "
him: "not only did you hurt my wife but you caused my daughter to have a seizure  "

I looked at him with eyes open
him: "Zithelo is my daughter now let me ask you how long were you planning to hide the fact that your body is changing "
did he say that Zee is his daughter? ooh my God, this guy is going to kill me now! "
me: "I did not mean to, i... I'm really sorry "
him: " you not answering me Alex "
me: "I was afraid, I just thought no one will believe me "
him: "did you even try? "
I shook my head no
him: " you see now what happen? this thing almost destroy you? you not only hurting innocent people but yourself too...fine I may also be the one to blame too for not telling Austine...but you carry the most blame!! "

he was angry and all I could do is look down
him: Alex The problem with keeping secrets is that they're alive. We like to think that our secrets can lie quietly in our minds, as inert as dirt, but we're wrong. Secrets aren't just our creations...they're our creatures, beings with wills of their own. They grow. They reproduce, as we form new secrets to support the old ones. They even migrate, colonizing the people closest to us. But the scariest thing about secrets is what they want, They want out. The truth constantly tries to escape into the open, and keeping any of it buried invites isolation, obsession, addiction, even complete psychological destruction. On the other hand, random or ill-advised confessions can be disastrous. The only way to find harmony and balance is to learn when, where, why and to whom you should confess your secrets. YourSisters were not ideal, But Austin was the right person, you lost your parents, and carrying this burden that you all alone is the reason that animal inside of you is manifesting "

I nodded and chewed biting my nails
Him: the road is only going to go very stip for you now, your body will start fighting with your soul, your brain will feel like it's boiling,  it all lies in your heart if you let that animal out or not "
me: "I'm scared, I see the beast almost every night and it always says 'let me in'...have you ever felt like no matter what you say or do something is out to get you? "
Him: Well I have been there everything you going through I have been there, feeling lost and alone and suicide not forgetting feeling like everyone around you thinks you crazy, I don’t know if this is comforting or not, but you’re not crazy. Something actually is out to get you. Whether or not you believe in the supernatural world,  but know that your body and soul are currently on spiritual warfare "

I looked at him all confused
him: ever heard the saying noted in the bible that 'for we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but the rulers, against the authorities, against the cosmic powers over this present darkness, against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places...the greatest trick the devil ever pulled was convincing the world he didn’t exist.' but trust me he does "

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To be continued