𝐌𝐘𝐒𝐄𝐋𝐅 | Hwang Hyunjin

0.8

- - Streets - Doja cat - -
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! disclaimer: don't do drugs kids

I don't know how it happened but I lost Jieun the first time after like twenty minutes. And it's not like this apartment is that big. It's pretty big but not that big.

And I still lost her.

I didn't really wanted to find her again immediately, so I just hung out with random people. They don't know me but they still talk to me, drink with me and just dance to the music.

I saw Jieun once in a while, we drank a shot together and then she was gone again.

And the time past so fast. I didn't even noticed how late it was.
I had so much fun.

I go out to the balcony. My head starts hurting like hell and I need some fresh air so that I don't collapse.

Because all the alcohol and the fact that my sleep schedule is completely fucked up and I'm tired 24/7 aren't the greatest conditions for me. And I am literally drinking for the first time, I am not really used to it.

I place my elbows on the metal from the balcony.
I close my eyes and take a deep breath. It feels so good to be out here.

Just breathing a little bit after being in there for hours.

But I notice that it's kinda cold. A light wind is hitting against my skin. It's not strong, but I still shiver a little bit.

I also notice that the air I am breathing isn't really fresh anymore either.

It smells like cigarettes. And the smell is getting stronger.
I open my eyes.

"Hey, pretty, what's your name?", some dude approaches me. I look to the side.
I didn't notice that a few guys were hanging out there and smoking.

And they don't look like bad people, but I don't want to talk to them right now. Not to be rude or anything. It's not like I care if I'm rude, but I'm not trying to be right now.

I'm not really in the mood right now. And they seems like they want to talk to me. Or at least one of them. This one guy who comes closer smiling at me.

"Why do you want to know?", I ask a little annoyed.
"I never saw you before."
He still is coming closer.

"I'm a friend of Jieun."
"Oh, Jieun. She always makes new friends. So tell me, what's your name, babygirl?", he smirks.
I just frown.

"Ew? Please don't call me like that again", I ask.
Even tho I can't properly think because it feels like my brain works so slow, I still hate that. Nobody calls me babygirl.

"Aw, I know you like it. But if you don't tell me you name, I will probably have to keep calling you like that", he shrugs.

"I'm not telling you my name", I just answer unbothered.
"So you want to keep being called babygirl, I see."
I just don't answer him and make a disgusted face.

"Come on, don't be like this", he comes even closer. Why does he have to come this close?

But I feel like I can't really move away. Why can't I? It's not like I'm not able to walk or anything, I'm fully functioning right now. Maybe not fully, like 60 percent, but that's not the point. It's just that my body doesn't want me to just go away.

He smirks.
"What do I have to do, babygirl?", he whispers. bows a little bit down to look me straight in the eyes. He smirks again.

"Do you want one?", he asks and pulls out a joint.

Mrs. Yang would kill me if she would see that. And my mom would literally flush me down the toilet.

They always told me how bad drugs are and that I should never my life just consider taking them. If I would, that would have really bad consequences for me, I could get punished in a way I never imagined it's possible.