𝐌𝐘𝐒𝐄𝐋𝐅 | Hwang Hyunjin

3.0

- - Wires - The neighbourhood - -

! trigger warning: abuse !

Even tho Hyunjin knew it, he looks surprised.
"You are Song Chinsun? How could you lie about your identity to us like that? For over six months!"

This is getting worse every moment passing by.
"I needed to protect myself", I whine.
"Hyunjin, what are you talking about?", Felix asks. They all are confused as hell.

"I swear to god if one of you guys says another word, I'm gonna kill you", Hyunjin threatens the boys, but he still is staring at me. I begin to cry. I can't really hold it back anymore. I know it's not looking good for me.

"Why did you need to protect yourself?", he asks. His grip got even stronger. He doesn't give a shit that I am crying, he has this cold and angry expression in his eyes that I never saw before. It's like all the love and kindness disappeared.

I can't answer. I can't get a single word out.
"How did you survive?", he asks instead.
"I-I ran away. And then Felix found me."

"Why did you run away? Why didn't you call the police?"
I cry even more.
I shake my head.
"N-no", I whisper.
He knows.

"Tell me."
"I can't."
He lifts me up even more, closer to his face. It hurts so bad, it's pulling on my neck.

"Tell. Me", he mumbles.
At first I can't say anything, I feel like I'm choking on my tears.
I look into Hyunjin's eyes.

His cold look full of hate is scaring me more the longer I look at him. This doesn't look like Hyunjin.

"I killed my family", I whisper.
Ever tho I wasn't loud, everyone heard clearly what I just said.

In the first moment, it's like time freezes. Nobody moves, nobody even breathes and it's completely silent. I just stare at Hyunjin and his threatening expression suddenly changes into a disgusted one.

He let's go if my face like I'm some kind of trash. I fall back to the ground and he stands up, still looking down to me.

"Y-You just lied into my face to use me after I helped you?", Felix asks.
His voice is trembling. I can't really recognize it because my tears, but I think he also is crying. And that's breaking my heart.

"You are so disgusting, Soomin. Or what should I call you?", Hyunjin says.
I cry out again.

"I-I swear to god, I am so sorry. I needed to save myself. I wasn't planning to stay that long. I am so sorry, Felix, please, you were my savior, I am so thankful, I want to make it up", I beg him.
But Felix isn't even looking at me anymore, he turned to Chan and is crying into his shoulder.

"Oh, please, just stop. How are we supposed to believe anything you say now? You're a monster. And a psychopath", Hyunjin says.

I can't even look at him anymore. Every single one of his words is feels so painful, they hit me like gunshots.

And the way he says it I can tell he's hurt too.
"You lied straight into our faces. You put on an act this whole time. We all trusted you. We all believed you. We all loved you. And you just acted everything?"

"N-no, you don't understand. I like all of you and I don't want anything bad for you- I-"
Honestly, I don't know what I can say to make this whole thing look better for me. But I care for them. They are important to me. And not in a way so that I can use them, they all grew to my heart.

"Oh stop. You think we are gonna believe you? That you actually care about us", he lets out a sarcastic snort. I also can see the tears in his eyes.

"Don't you get it? I loved you! I was in love with you! But only now I realize that I didn't fell in love with a real person, I fell in love with Lee Soomin, not the real you. Do you know how much that hurts? To find out that the person you love the most is a psychopath that just uses you? You probably would never understand that!", Hyunjin yells.

I can't speak because I'm sobbing so hard right now. But after catching my breath, I try it again.
"Hyunjin. I never played my feeling for you, I love you, I swear to god, please believe me", I beg.

He doesn't even look at me.
It's hopeless. But I really want him to belive me. I don't know how I can show him how much I care about him and the others.

"Hyunjin, I'm begging you. You can I prove you that I love you", I whisper.
He suddenly turns backs round and grabs me by the neck. He pushes me against the wall. His grip is so strong that I can't breath.

"Don't keep lying straight into my face. I wish you were death just like your family", he mumbled under his breath.

I start to choke because his grip got stronger.
I think this is actually my last living moment. I can see my life flashing in front of my eyes. I am not able to move anymore or to breath.

"Hyunjin, let go of her", Chan shouts and takes Hyunjin's hands away from my throat.

I fall to the ground again and take a deep breath and then, I start to cough.
Chan doesn't even look at me.

I need a moment to calm down again, I really think I am not able to speak right now.
But then I get myself together to beg them again.
"Please, believe me, you guys are my only family", I say with some voice cracks because I nearly got strangled and I cried my fucking eyeballs out.

I still don't feel able to stand up, so I grab the bottom of Hyunjin's shirt.
He flinches when I touch him and immediately slaps my hand away.

"I'm sorry, but you don't have a family, Song Chinsun. You killed your's", he say before he turns around and Chan takes him to his room. They all leave the living room again and go into their rooms, letting me alone.

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(A/n)

Haha sorry for cliffhanger last time if you had to wait

And also decided to bring back the music thing in like some chapters when it like really fits lol

But I think the videos aren't working anyways but if you really want the whole ✨vibe✨ you can play it on Spotify or idk I always like to play music when I read just for the vibe but everyone as they like just sayin