𝐌𝐘𝐒𝐄𝐋𝐅 | Hwang Hyunjin

1.7

- - k. - Cigarettes after sex - -

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Soomin's pov

It was kinda weird.
We we're all together.
Me and the boys. All together. We're running through a big field of grass, everyone together, holding each other's hand.

At some point, we slowed down and Hyunjin lifted me up. He spinned me around and we laughed. It was so beautiful, I never wanted this to end.

But this ended faster then I though. Out of nowhere, the sky darkened. It darkened to a bloodish red-black. It looked so scary. While I was looking up, Hyunjin stopped spinning. And he dropped me.

I didn't see it coming, so I didn't landed on my feet but fell to the ground. I was so confused, I didn't know why he would just drop me like that. But I notice that he's not there anymore.

"Hyunjin? Where are you?", I asked and looked around. But then I got dragged by the foot. I didn't even see who was the one who dragged me.

After some time, I stopped. And I wasn't in this field anymore, I was in my old house, in the living room, placed on a chair. And the person who dragged me was my sister.

She gave me her usual evil smirk.
"You don't deserve to be happy, you're a horrible human being", she said.

I had no idea what was going on. All of the sudden, my mom came in.
"Soomin, what did you do to your beautiful face? It looks all scratched up", she grabbed my face and eyed it.

But then she noticed something different.
"Oh, no, not your hair! You got dirt in it! And the knots. Let me brush it trough", she grabs a hair brush and started brushing her hair.

"Please, promise me, you are never gonna cut your hair. It's way too precious. You know how many girls would kill for hair like that? I mean look at your sister."

I looked at her, she was standing in the corner. Her hair was pretty too, it was just not as long and as thick as mine.

"Promise me, that you never will cut it", she says again. I didn't respond.

"I said promise me", she says again, in a louder voice then before.

She grabs my face again and makes it face up to her.
"Promise me that you won't cut it!", she shouts.
It was really really scary.

I panicked. "Yes, I promise, I won't cut it!", I quickly responded and in exactly that moment, I wake up. I was breathing heavily again.

And I still couldn't stop dreaming about my family. They won't leave me. It's impossible. It wasn't as bad as the other dream, but so much happened and it still scared me.

When I look around, I see that Hyunjin isn't there, I'm by myself in the bedroom. Maybe he went to his own bedroom again.

I really want him to be here right now, but I can't change the fact that he's not there. But I needed another way to compensate my feelings.

I go to the bathroom and let run some water to splash some in my face. It feels really good, it made me calm down. After I finish cooling down, I look up from the sink into the mirror.

And I just look at my face. I eye everything. Every single inch of my face. And then I see my hair. My long, strong and healthy hair. There are a lot of knots in it right now, but it still looks pretty.

I think about my dream. The thing is that the things aren't just a dream, it's actual stuff my mom said.

'Promise me that you will never cut your hair.'
And in this moment, I just stop thinking. I just opene all of the drawers in the bathroom, and I actually found a pair of scissors.