𝐌𝐘𝐒𝐄𝐋𝐅 | Hwang Hyunjin

1.2

- - Good days - sza - -

"Soomin, I actually had a idea for a job for you", Chan says. The others are all already asleep, I was still in the living room with him.

We actually were talking about some deep shit earlier. I asked him a lot of questions about Australia and why he came here to Korea. He told my about his dream, but how hard it was.

I really can't believe how he can spend 7 years as trainee, not knowing if he's gonna make it or not, seeing his other trainee friends debut but he still couldn't make it. Chan is actually such a good person. I still can't believe what he did to help others, and what he had to go trough.

I think I may actually feel a little bit sorry for him. But just a little bit.

But he's helping me now, with the job, because to be honest, I have no idea where to look.
"Oh, yes? Tell me about it."

"Uhm, it's really only if you want to. But when you are 18, you could start working at JYP entertainment. Maybe as assistant for us. Basically you would only have to do what Jieun or manager Suho or any other manager tells you to do. It's not that hard I think. And you get paid enough."

Is that a good idea?
Probably not. If I do this job, I will have to spend even more time with the boys. And the problem is that I really don't want to get emotionally attached to them in any way possible.

I never really was attached to a person. And I'm planning for it to stay like that. When people get attached, it just makes everything harder.

And I mean right now, the only reason I hang out with them is because I'm bored and I want to have fun. So I'm still not on the way to getting attached. I think.

But actually, I kinda like the job idea. I mean it's the same than before just that I have to do a little more. And I get paid. Yeah, actually it's not that much like right now. But at least I already know everything a little bit.

"Uhm, yeah. I think I can do that. But I have to wait until I'm 18, right?"
"Yeah, and we have to get you new papers. But that's not our problem now. So, I'm going to sleep. You should too, you really don't get much of sleep. That's not healthy."

"Don't tell me that, you don't sleep yourself."
He smiles.
"Just go to sleep."
He was about to go.

"Chan?", I say.
He stops and turns around.
"Thank you."
He smiles.
I mean it. He's way too kind to deserve someone like me just using him.

~

"You guys keep going on your dates?", Minho asks.
"Shut up", Hyunjin says.
"These aren't dates. We are working."

Hyunjin and I often go to the studio together.
I don't know why, but I don't hate it.

"But Minho's right, Minnie. We should go on a date some time", Hyunjin says while we get in the backseat of the car, while manager Suho get in in the front.

"Shut up. You're way too ugly for me", I answer.
"We already had that talk. Between us, you're the uglier one", he corrects me.

"You wish. You can't lie to me and to yourself, we all know it."
He snaps my forehead.
"Hey!" I hit his arm.
"Stop doing that! That hurts", I pout.

"You know that if you say that, I'm especially not gonna listen to you?"
"Yeah, I noticed that."

"You are so slow it's hilarious. I seriously don't know-"
"Wait!", I interrupt him and lift my finger.

He stops mid sentence and seems a little bit surprised. He just stares at me. I also don't say anything or move, I just stay like this.

"Do you hear that? It's silent. I can't hear your annoying voice. That's music to my ears", I then say.
He looks at me with his mouth wide open.

"The audacity oh my god you little bitch!"
He is about to hit me with the elbow in the face, but I stop him.
I have to laugh. It's so funny to see how dramatic he always reacts when I say stuff like that.

~

"Hey, Minnie, Hey Hyunjin." We just took a break when Chaeyoung was peeking in.

"Hey Chae. How are you doing?", I ask her. She's kinda cute, I already talked to her a few times before.
"I'm good, I'm good. A little bit exhausted, we're practicing a lot lately. I heard you were here so I wanted to check on you."

"Wow, and there it is again, I am invisible", Hyunjin says.
"Shut up, Hyunjin, there are things that are more important than you", I just try to keep him silent so that he doesn't interrupt me and Chaeyoung.
She chuckles.

"Okay, so uhm, do you want to go eat with us? We wanted to invite you to this place some time ago already but we never got to see you and none of us have your phone number. So what do you say?"

I talked to the girls a few times. I really like them, they are really cute. But I never expected them to like me this much. Guess my goal of being likable is actually reached. Didn't thought it was that this easy.

I stand up and look at Hyunjin, kinda waiting for a permission.
"Just go", he smiles.
"Are you staying here?", I ask.

"I can't go with you, I need to practice. And they invited you not me", he says. I smile and wave him goodbye.

"I'm coming back later. I try not be away for too long."
He nods.

~

It took a little bit longer than I thought. But I had so much fun with the girls that we completely lost track of time. They are all so nice and sweet.

But I still went back to the studio. I told Hyunjin I would come back. It was possible that Hyunjin wasn't there anymore and he already went back home. Wouldn't blame him, I was gone long enough. But then I would have no idea how to get back home.

I open the door of the stray kids room. And I see something I didn't expect. Hyunjin is sitting on the ground, crying. He's breathing heavily and sweating. He's hyperventilating, he probably is panicking. He doesn't seem very good, I'm really shocked seeing him like this.

He looks at me. The look in his eyes is so unfamiliar, I never saw him like this before. He was trying to say something, but he can't get a word out.

At first, I'm really shocked to see him like this, I don't I know what to do. I just stand there in the doorframe. But then I realize I need to to something.

~~~~~
(A/n)

Wassup

Hope y'all doing good

If someone out there isn't doing good
Just remember
You are a bad bitch

That was so random

But I feel like someone needed to be reminded lol

Bye babies <3