𝐌𝐘𝐒𝐄𝐋𝐅 | Hwang Hyunjin

4.3

~ ~ can you feel my hearth - bring me the horizon - -

! Tw: not gonna spoil anything but if you are sensitive I would skip !

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Hyunjin's pov

"Titanic? Okay, but you are Rose."

I stand on the border. She hugs me from behind. Obviously, it isn't exactly the scene from Titanic because I am standing higher and she's shorter than me, but it still can go trough.

She lays her head on my back.
"Is it high?", she asks and I look down.

"It's really high."

This moment feels so magical.
Ist so hard to describe.
But there's no other place I want to be right now.

I close my eyes, to feel the wind coming from in front of me but feeling Soomin's warmth around me.
But then I feel how she lets go of me.

I turn around and she holds my hands.
But something is weird about this.
Her expression is so different from usually.

Even tho there isn't much light here, I still can see something is wrong.
"Minnie?", I ask carefully.

It's like every emotion left her face. She just looks so cold.
She doesn't react.

She's just looking at me.
"Soomin? What's wrong?"
"I'm sorry Hyunjin."

"What are you talking about?"
She gives me a sad smile.

"You probably didn't see that coming. But it's the only way for me. So please don't try to fight back."
I am so confused.

What is she talking about?
She lets go of my hands and lays her hand on my chest.

Oh.

I think I know what will happen next.
"I really didn't saw that coming, congratulations, Soomin."

It's so weird how calm I feel. But I just accept it.
"Please never forget me. I love you", I whisper.

And then she just pushes me.

And I fall. I fall down the high building.

Falling feels so peaceful.

All I can hear is the wind in my ears.

She really took me by surprise, huh?

There's still so much I wanted to do. But I still can't be mad at her.

Why?
I have no idea.

I don't think I am really realizing what's just happening.

In the end, I was still happy, maybe that's the reason I'm not mad, because I had the best last moments.
All I see is the sky above me.

I can even see a few stars and the moon, it's a pretty clear night.

The sky is actually so beautiful when you think about it.

I close my eyes.

At least one of my wishes still came through. I was with her, until the end.

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Soomin's pov

All these feeling and I had fell with him.
They are gone now.

They were crap anyways.

I told myself not to get attached to anyone. And it needs to stay like that.

All these feelings, they did so much bad to me. What if they all were just imagination?

I felt like I was falling for him again, but would it be that easy for me then?

I think it was all just fake, all these feelings never were real, I just wanted them to be real. I'm just not capable of feeling anything.

They still could make me feel bad in the past. But not now anymore. I did the only thing that was right.

It's better like this. It had to be the right thing, concluding by how easy it was for me to just push him.

It just feel like the time I freed myself from my family.
I feel nothing.

And this is how it's supposed to be. It ended like it's supposed to be.

I don't need all this pain in life. I mean, it just all worked out so perfectly, it just has to be like this. This is my destination.

And I am by myself, again.

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