Mine

[55]

I heard the crack of someone apparating and then the sound of the door slamming shut behind me. I hadn't even realized I'd failed to close the front door behind me.

"It's okay." Blaise said as he fell to his knees beside me, pulling me into his arms. "Gemma, it's okay."

I pressed my face into his chest, crying into him. If I wasn't so consumed by this overwhelming feeling that had taken over me, I may have registered how bad this was of me. Here I was, crying after seeing Draco for the first time, in the arms of Blaise. It was awful of me. But those thoughts didn't enter my head while my emotions were elsewhere.

"Hey, look at me." Blaise murmured, pulling back to look down at my face.

"I-I need to be alone." I croaked out, pushing away from Blaise so that I was sitting before him.

"Gemma, talk to me." Blaise said softly, his eyes carefully taking in my state. I'm sure I had makeup smeared down my face from the tears and my hands covering my face.

"I can't." I whispered, fiercely rubbing the tears away from my cheeks. "I don't – I just need to be alone right now, Blaise."

Blaise slowly stood up, helping me to my feet. The palm of his hand came to lightly cup my cheek as he stared down at me, "You know I'm always here for you."

I attempted to give him a weak smile, but tears filled my eyes once again. "I'm sorry." I whispered, looking away from him.

Blaise didn't move from his spot, and it was starting to feel a little suffocating. I couldn't be crying like this in front of him. I recoiled from his touch when I finally realized just what was happening. I should not be crying over Draco in front of Blaise. Not when things had been going so well between us. It wasn't fair to him.

"I just –" I started saying but stopped at the sound of urgent knocking on the front door. "Who-"

"I'll get it." Blaise said, giving me a small smile.

I wrapped my arms around myself as Blaise took the few steps to the front door. My stomach dropped when he opened the door. There stood Draco, his eyes wide, his hair disheveled as if he'd been pulling at it.

"Gem – Blaise? Where's Gemma?" Draco asked desperately.

"I don't think now is a good time." Blaise said slowly.

I felt frozen in my spot, my arms tightening around my middle. My heart was ramming in my chest, my head beginning to feel dizzy, my breathing becoming difficult. Was this a panic attack?

Draco looked around Blaise, his eyes landing on me. He began to take a step into the house, but Blaise stopped him with a hand on Draco's chest. "Now isn't a good time, Draco." He said firmly.

"Gemma, please. I need to talk to you." Draco said, looking directly at me.

I opened my mouth to speak, but no words came out, so I just shook my head, my eyes going from Draco to frantically look at Blaise.

Blaise looked at me, nodding his head in understanding before he turned back to Draco. "You should leave."

"Blaise, please." Draco said. The pleading look in his eyes tore me into a split state. I did not want to speak to him, but that look...that fucking look.

"You both should go." I finally squeaked out, turning my eyes down towards my feet. I couldn't do this right now. I could barely bring myself to be around Blaise right now, let alone Draco. Having the both of them standing in front of me was too much.

"Gemma," Blaise sighed, but I just shook my head and snapped my head up, giving a pointed look to each of them.

"Now." I said, not allowing my voice to falter this time.