"Have you ever even been to Colorado?", Ally asked, hinting at the fact that maybe I was just scared to go, that I was just scared at the fact that our 'possibilities as a couple are endless'.
"Ray would love it too, wouldn't you, Ray?", she asked and he nodded his head as he sat at the table, eating his breakfast. He was the biggest San Francisco Falcon's fan there was.
"How could you even think about this? This is the most exciting thing I have in my life, I would give everything up for this moment, graduation, everything", he said, using his arms that expanded over the whole table, and Ally just chuckled to the side.
"Let's not get too ahead of ourselves, and this is a big step in our relationship if I go, it'll mean something", I told Ray and Ally, mostly Ally, but Ray was listening in on the reasons why we couldn't go and he wasn't having it.
"What about our relationship? THIS would mean the world to me and if you aren't ready why can't I just go, I'll take care of myself, I won't bother Luca I promise", he pleaded and pleaded and I knew I would soon give in with going if the boy was suggesting going to an unknown city all by himself.
"I am not sending you anywhere by yourself", I told him and he looked at me sourly. I knew he wanted to go, he would find a way to convince me, but I knew that I needed to stay for Ray.
Ray went to go get ready for school, and then Ally had a moment to ask me really why I had said no.
"You should say yes, come on", she said begging for the twentieth time let alone this time by herself. Her and Ray had formed a pact and they now had ganged up on me about this trip.
But there was a real reason I was saying no, one that would mean the world to him if he knew about it.
"Ray's mom she rescheduled her check up she missed, I know he wants to go but she has never been the one to make the first move about her check ups and I don't want to ask her to reschedule it, Ray deserves that", I told Ally and she nodded her head understanding why I couldn't tell him. Ray's mom, Loren had missed her appointments, check-ups, and numerous meet ups with Ray, and so after I just keep getting his hopes up to be let down, I don't tell him, I just take him and see. Most of the time she doesn't show, she knows what's happens if she doesn't show, but it's hard for her. She only wants the best for him, but she sometimes feels like she isn't what's best for him.
"And what does Luca think about this?", she asked and it was as if she had already known that he didn't even know that this was a reason that was keeping me behind.
I didn't want him to think this was the only reason keeping me here, I wanted him to know that this was a big step, and I didn't know if I was ready.
"He doesn't know about it", I said quietly and she looked at me surprised by my choice, to keep this 'valuable' information from him. I knew it wouldn't hurt to tell him, but I just wanted him to know that maybe I was unsure about this trip as well.
"Look if he knows, he's going to think we're perfect, I still feel uneasy about all of this", I told her and she looked like I needed to make a decision quickly, like the time was slipping from underneath me. And I felt it too, I wanted to do it right this time not rush into the sentiments, and feelings so quickly and take our time enjoying whatever we were.
"I have a bad feeling about this", she said, Ally always had a bad feeling about most things, but that never stopped her from doing them.
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A Flame From The Past
Romance"She was the only flame in his past, the only thing he loved about his past" 7 years fly by as Carina and Luca avoid the magical night they had, that left both of them speechless. But now that they meet in other circumstances, will they continue th...
